Realisation.

Having spent the day in school without you today, made me realise, something. Well i guess what made me realise smth today in particular's prolly cause it was an early vday celebration and you werent there. Normally the people i want/need are always around, to help me. But yeah, there were people who helped me, but i wanted you in particular.

What i realised today is that. I'm actually fine. I mean, all this while when i said that i couldnt fully trust you, i was just telling myself the wrong thing. I mean i thought that i thought i wasnt ready. But actually i am. I was since i said yes. I was just so blind not to be able to realise that at that moment. Its stupid, i noe, and i'm [actually] ashamed that i went about telling you that i wasnt ready, when i was. I noe this isnt enough to make you hate me, but i noe u'd feel somewhat frustrated that you had to go thru all that, just to find out that i didnt need it. Right now, i just cant think of a suitable way to make it up to you. For being there and [most importantly] for putting up with all my stupidity. I noe u've heard this before, but most guys would've given up ages ago *smiles* and i thank you. Really. I really thank you for always being there. We may have our ups,downs,agreements and disagreements but thats just. Us. Cause. Perfection. Is being able, to accept one's imperfection wholeheartedly.

So right now, i'd just want to dedicate this song. Partly cause you had to read all of that *points up* and cause i noe u'd understand why i chose this song.


Ready To Love Again - Lady Antebellum
Seems I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognized my own reflection, no
Scared of love, but scared of life alone
Seems I've been playin' on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it's time for me to let it go.

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again.

Just when you think that love will never find you
You run away but still it's right behind you, oh
It's just something that we can't control

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again.

So come and find me
I'll be waiting up for you
I'll be holding out for you tonight

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, ready to love again