Friday, January 30, 2009

Grr!

Ok. I'm sure all of u have gotten one of those times when u just feel like killing ur mom yes? Well, I got another one from mine yday.

I went to my teacher's hse together with my friends and they suggested we go 2 jusco. So yea i agreed, but i didnt tell my mom. So when she came to pick me up in jusco, her face was so black i thought she got burnt. "Who said u could go to jusco in the first place? You know how much i hate to come to jusco during holidays!" Then she goes on for another few minutes sayin the same sentences. Then she ends with. "I don't like u to always hang out in jusco, dont u have a home?! I want u to end up like ur cousin" [my cousin's this girl who literally turned from a nice girl to a s-l-u-t. I'm not shitting u] and just because THAT person always hangs in jusco, my mom thinks that i'll become one just cause i went to jusco w/o tellin her =.=

Then my mo's like all ok until my dad got home. Then she tells him bout the BIG crime i commited. Then she like turned to me and asked.

"Who did u go with? You went with ur boyfriend didnt u?"

That really pissed me off. If she werent my mom i would've swore. "NO. Wth. I went with my friends.." [then i start to mention theire names] then i just walk off.

What the fuck man. Yes i'm wrong for not telling her i was goin to jusco but how could she accuse me of smth like that? Did she honestly think i'd go to jj w/o tellin her just to go meet my boyfriend?[which i dnt have btw] COME ON MOM I'M NOT LIKE THAT U'VE KNOWN ME FOR 15 YEARS.

UGH!!!

But -sigh- no matter what. She's still my mom. And i guess i still love her...
But i didnt say i forgive her yet ;P

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends who r celebrating this festival
:)

Potential journal entry =P

Hello again. Yes i am back =D

lol
first of all i'd like to thank the ppl who became my followers and for the comments for my poem.
I LOVE U ALL!
*ahem* y-ea.

anyway in this blog i thought i'd just tell u whats goin on in my life so far.
*Mr Raj this may go into my journal =P*

hmm..lets see..

So far as u can see i've gotten 2 followers and i am totally and utterly grateful.
I've been taking facebook's mini quizzes again. Its weird how ppl can think of so many types of quizzes. E.g. What kind of smile do u hv, what do ppl see in ur eyes, what fruit r u. These r few of the more sane ones. Some weird ones include what drug r u and theres even one that tell u how fucked up u are.
Amazing aint it? Maybe I should make one..hehe..oh wait i think i did..lol

anyway putting that aside uh..i guess i'll just crap out what comes into my brain =)

I'm still sick if anyone cares, my cough's better and now i'm able to get at least 2 hours of sleep. Erm my now in aussie friend has made contact with me via handphone. I have not touched any of my hw for the holidays =P and..i am currently listenting to Claire de Lune by Enigma.

-sigh-

You noe whats funny? [well for me in the dry humour way] i find myself very..unchanged for a person of 15. I mean looking at my friends i can see them changing. As in personality wise. They've become more matured in ways. As for me I feel as though i'm stuck. I mean here i am enjoying lollies and any random sweet stuff there they are eating granola bars and all that. I. FEEL. LIKE. A. MISFIT. sigh~
Oh well. I guess thats just how i am. =P

Friday, January 23, 2009

The Bleeding Heart

The bleeding heart
Whose wounds would not heal
Whose pain would not cease
Whose cuts would not seal

The lost soul
In her story she has no part
Forever she'll search
For her lost, bleeding heart

The bleeding heart
And it's trail of red blood
Will wonder the earth
Through stone and through mud

The lost soul
Will wonder not seen by the eye
But not far away
More souls follow by

The bleeding heart
And it's thick trail of red
Holds words left unwritten
And things never said

The lost soul
Will never find
Her lost bleeding heart
She feels no more, so she doesnt mind

The bleeding heart
Has touched many lived
Has seen many faces
And heard many lies

The lost soul
Never opens her eyes
She never did know
There was blue skies

The bleeding heart
Is ever the same
It cant stay the same colour
Or own the same name

The lost soul
Never has felt a thing
Never touched crisp, fresh leaves
Or heard a bell ring

Together they'll wander
Through earth, wind and fire
And do anything
From kill to inspire.

My First Poem.

Eating ice cream on a hot day
Brought back memories of that day
Do you remeber?
Or do u want them to just fade away?

It was just an ordinary day
When u came up to me just to say
"I like u, i really really do"
And with that i didnt noe what to do.

I try to speak but nothing comes out
And at that moment I felt like passing out
I close my eyes and imagine your face
Then realizing that my heart was at a frightening pace

Looking back i still dont noe why
You left me without saying goodbye
Was it 'cause of the girl across the lane?
Maybe thats why you kept glancing out the window pane.

I try to hold back the tears
But like raindrops
They kept on falling
I dont noe why, but its the most uncontrollable feeling

As I silently sat in the hall
I suddenly felt shaken
I must've been mistaken
But did i just hear someone call?

As I walked to my window
I almost broke down crying
Because there you were
all smiles and laughing

I half expected you to turn
So that i could see your face
But my heart started to burn
Because there by your side
I spotted a new face




*I apologize for the weird ending. I had to modify it coz the old one was very lame. =P hope u like it >< *

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Go but come back.

First of all my apologies for my previous post. I just felt...well emo. lol. And also for not being able to update.

Anyway.

I have the greatest news ever. My friend is going to Australia and he may not be coming back. How great is that? *sarcasm*

To my friend if ur reading this:
Have a safe trip. Enjoy urself. And..
YOU BETTER COME BACK!
If not...
I will kill you
:D hehe.

We got a new classmate on monday. Her names Holly. She's ok i mean she isnt the one-look-u-noe-she's-bitchy type. So far i guess she likes it here.

-sigh- oh yes i guess i should explain my previous post.

I'm beginning to think that my love life is like cursed or maybe i'm just destined to pick the wrong guys. Yes. I noe i'm still too young to be thinking about relationships and should b focusing on my studies..blah blah. But i'm 15. Its like..i dunno. This default feeling i get. Heck all teens feel it. Anyway we had a bloody fitness test briefing on monday and now my shoulders and legs hurt. And i have freaking class today. How am i going to dance? Yes i take dance lessons. Ballet to be exact. And DONT you dare think its this thingy where you do gay steps, well let me tell you. Those steps may look gay but they may b hard to do. lol. hahahahahahaha. that was funny. but seriously ballet isnt gay..most of the time :]

18/01/09

Tears? Why am i crying? He already said that I wasn't worth his tears and yet here i am crying my eyes out while typing this down.

Yes, my friends were right. You is nothing but a jerk. I should've known that you are and always will be one of those rich brats, who enjoy making the lives of people whose parents dont have a 'status' or own big cars miserable. I was stupid not to trust my friends. Why did i ever doubt them?
Why?! Because i was stupid enough to bloody hope that You would be different. But as always i was wrong. To you i'm just this toy. One day your all nice and before i knew it. I was under the bed. Alone and forgotten. Do you seriously expect me to just forgive you like that?

Well in case you havent noticed i'm human too you know. Yes. I DO bleed and yes i DO cry. I'm not a machine.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

The Bleeding Heart.

hello again.
i want to publish some of my poems here.
but theres something wrong. =[
i shall try A-G-A-I-N. =[

Friday, January 16, 2009

Happy Bday Regine :D

Happy Bday U Pig :D
I love u. haha
and i noe u love me too.
-yes jasmin i love u too :] -

anyway putting that aside.

I wanna tell u all smth.
hehe.
oh yeah mr raj if ur reading this welcome :]

ok. i am t-i-r-e-d.
hehe sorry lol
y am i apologizing?
ok i am in random mode now.
byebye :)

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Continuation of the previous blog.

I took the test =D haha.
Gosh i hate my internet connection. its freaking fucked up.
anyway i'll just post this b4 it goes off again

OMG I GOT EDWARD CULLEN FOR THE TEST
HAHA
the test is actually called
"Who is your REAL twilight boy?"
lol
haha.
anyway ttyl byes~
-woo happy lol-

I HATE shitty weeks.

Grr! i seriously hate hate hate shitty weeks.its like this continuos stream of problems.
Its like getting a tight slap every hour. It.drives.me.mad.
Teachers. Homework. Bitchy girls and jerky guys. its a living hell i tell u.

Anyway putting aside that. Today i was chatting with my friend on MSN and her PM [personal message] was
"~my twilight boi is Jacob Black~ -- not what i expected but better than ppl ~~~ emmet is better??? hmm"
At first i thought she meant she liked Jacob Black more compared to Emmet. But i was wrong. [as always]
her answer was not expected *_*

Pauline says:
Y JACOB BLACK???
Jade says:
i took the test
Jade says:
and it was jacob~
Jade says:
=.=
Jade says:
b4 it was emmet
Pauline says:
oh
Jade says:
== WHY NOT EDWARD
Pauline says:
lol
Jade says:
but i dont mind
Pauline says:
hahahahhahha

Then i contemplated whether or not to take the test. I mean. i want to but its kinda odd. I mean I'm not like OBSESSED with it. But then again it IS just a test. Nehh! then i pondered on that question for like 10 mins.

Ok. 20mins edi passed.
OK i shall take the test.
BRB =D

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Introduction [lol]

Hello. My first blog here. So P-L-E-A-S-E. Don't expect anything fancy yet arite?
Ok we shall all get to noe more bout me first.
haha.
Pauline/15/Malaysia
my birthday is on the 6 january.
Eventhough my details say I am a dog for my zodiac i am actually a rooster. lol
I'm still not sure why yet.
Anyway my starsign part is like screwed coz i am definately NOT a Gemini.
I.AM.A.CAPRICORN.
I shall try to update my blog as often as i possibly can ok?
i shall stop now so that i'd have more to write later. lol
bye~