Now i see why u told me u updated ur blog though u knew i didnt hv net access at that time. Okay fain. I wont say anythng bad to you here [cause i already did while texting you xPP]
Anyway, it was nice to read =) i'm surprised u'd do that since my last blog post haha ;) all the memories that you mentioned, i surprisingly rmbred all of it. Except the home science one. But i definitely rmbr how u became my older brother and of course, halloween. Thank you again for the post and being there =)
cant stop grinning now. Damn XPP
Monday, February 15, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
Realisation.
Having spent the day in school without you today, made me realise, something. Well i guess what made me realise smth today in particular's prolly cause it was an early vday celebration and you werent there. Normally the people i want/need are always around, to help me. But yeah, there were people who helped me, but i wanted you in particular.
What i realised today is that. I'm actually fine. I mean, all this while when i said that i couldnt fully trust you, i was just telling myself the wrong thing. I mean i thought that i thought i wasnt ready. But actually i am. I was since i said yes. I was just so blind not to be able to realise that at that moment. Its stupid, i noe, and i'm [actually] ashamed that i went about telling you that i wasnt ready, when i was. I noe this isnt enough to make you hate me, but i noe u'd feel somewhat frustrated that you had to go thru all that, just to find out that i didnt need it. Right now, i just cant think of a suitable way to make it up to you. For being there and [most importantly] for putting up with all my stupidity. I noe u've heard this before, but most guys would've given up ages ago *smiles* and i thank you. Really. I really thank you for always being there. We may have our ups,downs,agreements and disagreements but thats just. Us. Cause. Perfection. Is being able, to accept one's imperfection wholeheartedly.
So right now, i'd just want to dedicate this song. Partly cause you had to read all of that *points up* and cause i noe u'd understand why i chose this song.
Ready To Love Again - Lady Antebellum
Seems I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognized my own reflection, no
Scared of love, but scared of life alone
Seems I've been playin' on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it's time for me to let it go.
Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again.
Just when you think that love will never find you
You run away but still it's right behind you, oh
It's just something that we can't control
Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again.
So come and find me
I'll be waiting up for you
I'll be holding out for you tonight
Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, ready to love again
What i realised today is that. I'm actually fine. I mean, all this while when i said that i couldnt fully trust you, i was just telling myself the wrong thing. I mean i thought that i thought i wasnt ready. But actually i am. I was since i said yes. I was just so blind not to be able to realise that at that moment. Its stupid, i noe, and i'm [actually] ashamed that i went about telling you that i wasnt ready, when i was. I noe this isnt enough to make you hate me, but i noe u'd feel somewhat frustrated that you had to go thru all that, just to find out that i didnt need it. Right now, i just cant think of a suitable way to make it up to you. For being there and [most importantly] for putting up with all my stupidity. I noe u've heard this before, but most guys would've given up ages ago *smiles* and i thank you. Really. I really thank you for always being there. We may have our ups,downs,agreements and disagreements but thats just. Us. Cause. Perfection. Is being able, to accept one's imperfection wholeheartedly.
So right now, i'd just want to dedicate this song. Partly cause you had to read all of that *points up* and cause i noe u'd understand why i chose this song.
Ready To Love Again - Lady Antebellum
Seems I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognized my own reflection, no
Scared of love, but scared of life alone
Seems I've been playin' on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it's time for me to let it go.
Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again.
Just when you think that love will never find you
You run away but still it's right behind you, oh
It's just something that we can't control
Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again.
So come and find me
I'll be waiting up for you
I'll be holding out for you tonight
Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, ready to love again
Monday, February 8, 2010
HELL YEAH I HATED YOU.
Like isnt that OBVIOUS?
U fucking broke my HEART and now cause of YOU
I cant sleep properly anymore.
WHY?
Cause there are still days when i wake up in the middle of the fucking night crying.
Crying tears that you never deserved.
You shredded my heart,
Into a million pieces,
You ungrateful bastard.
But.
Yeah ur right.
I am happier now.
And in a way,
I'm glad that whatever we were happened.
Cause now,
I noe what that kind of pain feels like.
So thank you.
Like isnt that OBVIOUS?
U fucking broke my HEART and now cause of YOU
I cant sleep properly anymore.
WHY?
Cause there are still days when i wake up in the middle of the fucking night crying.
Crying tears that you never deserved.
You shredded my heart,
Into a million pieces,
You ungrateful bastard.
But.
Yeah ur right.
I am happier now.
And in a way,
I'm glad that whatever we were happened.
Cause now,
I noe what that kind of pain feels like.
So thank you.
Friday, February 5, 2010
T.G.I.F. :)
Yes, its friday. At long last its the weekend again. Whats so awesome bout this weekend? There's no homework =D hehee yes im thankful for that. Anyway, unlike every other friday, this one had to end on a slightly sour note.
It all happened in maths...
My math teacher gave us some exercises to do from the book. I didnt get how to do it at first so yeah i was asking Nikki but she didnt noe either so we asked Andrew. She,my math teacher, said "If you cannot finish it then its gonna be homework. And im sure u wouldnt want homework right?". So Nikki and i thought oh okay if we dnt finish then its homework, fine. Halfway doing, someone else passed up. Immediately she said "oh looks like ur the only one who's going home on time". Nikki and i were like, wtf? But yeah we were trying to just finish the work. When we were almost done, Andrew points out that what we've been doing was wrong. OMG. We freaked. So in the end, Nikki and i were like the last to leave. =_____= Mehh. Hate maths. ANYWAY. Shant let that put we off, it is the weekend after all =)
CNY's a comin' =DD HEHEE hellooo ang paus ;D i find it a bit ironic that this year's CNY falls on the same day is Valentine's Day. I hate Valentine's Day. Not that i have anything against it, i just had bad experiences with it so yeah, im usually a little glum on that day. But this year i'll have to look happy cause its CNY. "I have to look happy because CNY falls on a date i hate.____.". That just popped into my mind. Oh well, at least after it all i wont be as broke as i am now.
Speaking of cash, i am in need of a job. Lots of ppl say "work for ur dad". Well now i say, i need a job that PAYS. In CASH. Sigh, main prob is i dnt hv transport. I'm bleeding 16 and im of legal age to get a motorbike. But NO~ parents are against bikes =_= just my luck. Anyway, guess i'll hv to wait. Again. Cause patience is a virtue, thats what my mom said. Yeah, that made me feel oh-so-much better. Note the sarcasm.
It all happened in maths...
My math teacher gave us some exercises to do from the book. I didnt get how to do it at first so yeah i was asking Nikki but she didnt noe either so we asked Andrew. She,my math teacher, said "If you cannot finish it then its gonna be homework. And im sure u wouldnt want homework right?". So Nikki and i thought oh okay if we dnt finish then its homework, fine. Halfway doing, someone else passed up. Immediately she said "oh looks like ur the only one who's going home on time". Nikki and i were like, wtf? But yeah we were trying to just finish the work. When we were almost done, Andrew points out that what we've been doing was wrong. OMG. We freaked. So in the end, Nikki and i were like the last to leave. =_____= Mehh. Hate maths. ANYWAY. Shant let that put we off, it is the weekend after all =)
CNY's a comin' =DD HEHEE hellooo ang paus ;D i find it a bit ironic that this year's CNY falls on the same day is Valentine's Day. I hate Valentine's Day. Not that i have anything against it, i just had bad experiences with it so yeah, im usually a little glum on that day. But this year i'll have to look happy cause its CNY. "I have to look happy because CNY falls on a date i hate.____.". That just popped into my mind. Oh well, at least after it all i wont be as broke as i am now.
Speaking of cash, i am in need of a job. Lots of ppl say "work for ur dad". Well now i say, i need a job that PAYS. In CASH. Sigh, main prob is i dnt hv transport. I'm bleeding 16 and im of legal age to get a motorbike. But NO~ parents are against bikes =_= just my luck. Anyway, guess i'll hv to wait. Again. Cause patience is a virtue, thats what my mom said. Yeah, that made me feel oh-so-much better. Note the sarcasm.
I'm not talking to u cause u lied about ur time, and i spent the whole day wondering how the hell u got ur bluff time XPP
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Ellow =)
Ello mates =) i'm feeling oddly happy though the fact that im sick at the moment. Eh heh. Yeah its one of those times that im sick again. Got a nibble from the flu bug yesterday. Anyway, its the 2.4 km run for me tmr. Joy. Well [yeah i noe i sound a wee bit conceited but] im pretty sure i can ace the thing. As in finish it in under 14 mins. I'm aiming for 12 mins but yeah. I'll just see tmr x)
Ooh ooh Hui Zen and i are planning on doing a cover xD its a strictly NON-serious thing xD i mean we wont like post it or anything. Well if its really flawless then maybe we would x) there wont be any deadlines or "leaders" to boss us around like in a band =D ita a totally relaxed thing. AND most important thing is. WE'RE GONNA HAVE FUN =D hehe cant wait.
Guess thats all for today, cant really think much when my nose decides to block itself up. Catch ya laters ;)
Ooh ooh Hui Zen and i are planning on doing a cover xD its a strictly NON-serious thing xD i mean we wont like post it or anything. Well if its really flawless then maybe we would x) there wont be any deadlines or "leaders" to boss us around like in a band =D ita a totally relaxed thing. AND most important thing is. WE'RE GONNA HAVE FUN =D hehe cant wait.
Guess thats all for today, cant really think much when my nose decides to block itself up. Catch ya laters ;)
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