Its been 2 going on 3 weeks since i told you how i felt about you. I thought you'd really give it a thought but i found out you forgot about it all together. I'm not mad neither am i sad, cause i understand that you're still healing and most probably not ready yet. And cause of that i'd like you to noe that i'm trying my best to not love you anymore cause that'll make life easier for you. And the l;ast thing i wanna do is hurt you ryt now. All this while i've loved you from afar but i'll have to somehow let it go the only reason i'm giving up is cause i dont want you to love me cause of pity, i want you to love me, well, cause you love me. For who i am. So yea.

p.s. what happened yday was just a 'chore' i noe u didnt mean it. But i'm happy it happened anyway *smiles* I wish it could happen more often though but hopefully you do it cause you want to next time. lol.

What i think..

This post is gonna b what I think bout valentines day. So if u dont like it then dont read it.

For me, valentine's is a freakin waste of time. I mean its just an ordinary day. Its not like Christmas or anything religous. If you say your reason is to celebrate love then why only today the 14th of February? Shouldn't it be celebrated everyday? If you say its a reason to give people candy or flowers, is there a law that says: You can only give gifts during a special occation? But hey, i'm just saying. Its not like i have anything against it. Its just like..smth to think bout you noe.

But theres only ONE thing that kinda ticks me off bout this day. Y'know u walk into a mall and then SUDDENLY some lala couple pops out of no where. I mean its ot wrong for them to be 'in love' but do they have to show it so openly? I mean..ITS A MALL!! The girls would be like wrapping themselves around the guys flaunting they're multicoloured socks and short short skirts [just as colourful] and the guys would be showing off they're 'macho-ness' by wearing shirts and showing off they're chests. Its bad enough to try to not look at them on normal days. Now that its V day, WHOA its like they go ALL OUT.

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ok this post is so random..esp the 2nd part ;P
oh well. Cheers~

ello duckies :D

Sorry havent been bloggin for a while. Suckish net here and yes no time :P
I had extra math classes again! YAY.
haha trigenometry is actually KINDA easy
k-i-n-d-a.

anyway being today the 13th of february. Meaning tmr is the 14th *no duhh* and we all noe what 'celebration' it is tmr ryt? YUP. Its Valentines Day, my favourite day. *sarcasm* ok cutting the crap i actually got chocolates =OOO why today when its tmr? Well.Its cause i got them in school. And that for me is very surprising. To be honest this is the well..kinda first time i actually got chocolates xP yes yes i noe i noe i'm a loser. But hey, i'm pauline. The never is and never will be perfect girl :)
haha

anyway i gtg
cheers :)

T.T

I went o visit mrs ignatius today with regine. She's all fine. She was telling us about her husband, her children and generally whatever regine's parents were saying or asking.

As they were chatting right. It was kinda cool cause it was like whatever they said was like 'connected'.Like for instance mrs ignatius's husband was the head of smth in carsam. And regine's dad[he was saying] told regine and her mom that a head of smth from carsam passed away and who would've thought it was mrs ignatius's husband. I always thought Ipoh was small..but never really thought it was that small. Oh I also got to noe that mrs ignatius's oldest daughter noes my parents from church..wow..it IS a small world.

I feel utterly emo today..and i think i found out what asthma feels like. [again] Yday i was reading the blog i was talkin bout and my chest suddenly felt tight. And like i had to clutch it and i was literally puffing. I couldn't even move..it was scary..and its like i dont even noe when its gonna come..
ugh =.=

I just happened to stumble across this blog post..and i dont noe why..it just made me feel all..hurt inside. It just made me feel..idk..it just hurt to read it..it was bout this guy [the blogger] talking bout what happened to him a few months back [according to his blog] and like he was saying if he was more 'controlled' would things hv worked out better and all that. And,heh,idk y it just made me feel..smth..but i just cant describe what. Its kinda like you suddenly being told that ur pet died or smth. Heh. Idk what is wrong with me.

cant think of a title now.

heylowws.
i noe i promised to keep this blog updated but its just that..nothing interesting happened..i mean..nothing out of the ordinary that is..

oh wait smth new DID happen. My friend whom i said was moving to melbourne..has decided to stay here =D thanks to the economy crisis he says. i noe it sounds wierd but oh well. Whatever works =PP

&&

Mrs Chan [my maths teacher] started her extra maths classes yesterday [yes. i actually stayed back for an hour for maths] it was quite, i cant believe im saying this but it was quite...fun...i think its cause the sums were kinda easy so thats y it was fun =P and and she gave me a 'Good' cause she marked the work we did yday. i actually got 14 out of the 15 sums i completed..wow..
o.o

u noe what my friend asked me that day? She was like..
"You really seem to care more about ur hw now dont u?"
and i was like..
"Yea actually.." *silence*

well..i guess thats it..for now..if i rmbr anything else i'll post it later
cheers :]