Inspiration on a sunny day

its been a long time.

2011-06-23T13:01:00.000+08:00

its been a long time..a really really really long time.
for what u may ask, well my fellow readerwhoactuallygives2fucksonwhatimabouttowrite, a long time for a lot of things.
first of, its been a long time since i made a blog post, im surprised my blog hasnt been suspended of smth for under usage & all. second, as hard as it may seem to believe, its been a long time since i've actually fallen for someone. not the 'yes i miss you bla bla bla kid's shit' sort. but the real, 'i miss u till i hope the next person to turn the corner's gonna be u' kind. it may sound stalker-like,forgive me, i cant think of a better example. but really, it seems weird and somewhat unfair to my exes,cause i mean i just didnt like them as much as i like this specific person. i've really dug a deep hole, and im just hoping i'll be able to crawl my way back up to the top if things get bad. cant stand being in a deep ditch, thats why i distance myself with guys who get too close. but, sigh it happened anyway. the more u try to avoid falling for someone, all the bloody more it'll come looking for u. its not a bad thing,i admit. but its just. ur never prepared for it u noe?

but anyway i'll be heading back to tumblr now. whoever's reading this pls stop by
dont be shy =)

thats all for now
cheers.

jealousy.

2010-12-23T23:43:00.002+08:00

turns out, he didnt leave me. he just left to get me ice cream :)

in order to keep u going

2010-11-30T20:36:00.000+08:00

yes dear bloggie, in order to keep u going i shall post smth.

Today was the last day of the school term & HELLO CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS :D the absolutely ~~sad~~ part about it though is:

i hv to study. Shit loads
i hv to do my homework. Which consists of 6 past year papers for math, 4 for econs, 4 for malay, 12 for bio. & not forgetting english. Which is summaries & all that shit. Fun, no?
i hv to fucking get more flexible for ballet. Like really, touch-the-wall-with-my-the-soul-of-my-foot-with-my-leg-over-my-head while standing. Flexible.
i hv to stop trying to be on tumblr so much .___.
& yes basically doing the list over & over & over again.

ANYWAY. There are some good points to my sad sounding life. I managed to watch Happy Potter & the deathly hallows [:D] & Unstopplables.

TODAY.

Was such a fun day. Everything was fine. Till i got my ballet results.

I got a fucking Merit. Sigh.. Got a 73. 75's a distinction. Ish ish ish.

Anyway guess thats it for now. Till next time.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE :)

OH & i got my phone back! :)

2010-11-10T17:04:00.001+08:00

I've been using tumblr so much it took me 15 mins to rmbr how to change my blog title .___. damn...

pictures :)

2010-11-05T01:25:00.000+08:00

Yes they are by urs truly. :)

The original

The edited #1

The edited #2

Losing appeal.

2010-11-03T16:51:00.000+08:00

Blogspot is getting...boring .__. but i will still keep this alive :)
Julianne u bitch u changed the link without telling me :(
Tumblr's pretty hahahahaha. Oh i found this thing it was oh so true.

TUMBLR STOLE ME FROM FACEBOOK & TWITTER.

No i dont hv twitter. "Twitting" is just so. Mehh anyway yeah my tumblr's on the previous post :)

Cheers.

2010-11-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”
FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “you will die in Seven days…” (Note, if you don’t understand this, watch The Ring. Then watch The Ring 2. Then watch Ringu.)
FRIENDS: Help you up when you fall.
BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”
FRIENDS: Help you find your prince.
BEST FRIENDS: Kidnap him and brings him to you.
FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.
BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”
FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.
BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.
FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month.
BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.
FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.
BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run, fucker, run!”
FRIENDS: Will help you move.
BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.
FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”
or
FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail again
BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying “DAMN!” we messed up!
FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIENDS: Help themselves and are the reason why you have no food.
FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!
FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.
FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.
BEST FRIENDS: Have you on speed dial.
FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”
FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…
FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd’s ass that left you
FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”
FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.
FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)
BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.
FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.
BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!
FRIENDS: Would read and ignore this.
BEST FRIENDS: Will repost this :)

2010-11-02T17:36:00.003+08:00

http://togetherwewillbeunstoppable.tumblr.com/
(:

Terrified

2010-10-22T23:41:00.001+08:00

Catherine McPhee (Ft. Zachary Levi) Lyrics

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time in the last time
In my only life.

This could be good
It's already better than that
And love is worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

You said it again my hearts in motion
Every word feels like a shooting start
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time
in my only

I only said it cause i mean it
I only mean cause it's true
So don't you doubt what i've been dreaming
Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever i'm without you

You said it again my hearts in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time
In my only life

2010-10-22T19:06:00.000+08:00

I've just gotten myself an account on tumblr. And I dont know whether i should totally convert to tumblr or not. I mean i'm so used to blogspot already & its like such a hassle right now cause, on tumblr, pretty themes are bought. Ahh we'll see we'll see. In the mean time, this blog's fine with me :)

so cool.

2010-10-21T18:35:00.002+08:00

Rethink Scholarship at Langara 2010 Call for Entries from Langara College on Vimeo.

2010-10-20T16:23:00.000+08:00

TO: whoever has my hp no.

no smsing me or calling me on my handphone number. Phone's been taken away.

I shouldnt be angry ryt? After all its MY fault. Its always my fault everything's my fault.

2010-10-14T18:11:00.002+08:00

To that special friend of mine who's been there since 11 years ago :)

Firework - Katy Perry
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Somehow, i think. That you always feel like ur alone and that no one will ever be by ur side.

That u always feel like ur inferior or that ur not special.

But really. You are, and dont u ever forget that

How do i noe?

Simply cause you're special to me

and together; we will be unstoppable

;)

Mehh

2010-10-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

First off. Can u [yes u, the reader] see the part on my blog where, just below each post there is this line "posted by Candle Girl" IF you can see that. Then could u PLEASE tell me how can i edit that part? Yes, i did it before but i've forgotten now. So, yeah. P&Q [please & thank you] :)

Listen

2010-10-09T22:20:00.000+08:00

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

2010-10-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

Just got back from Penang & i feel like the weekend's too short again ><
Just a short post.
I miss you & i noe ur busy but. Yeah. I just miss you :(

OH i am so happy for u. I really hope it works out well for u :)

btw
I like it on my bed ;)

Blogging again :)

2010-10-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

First & foremost, FUNG ZAL YAH IS GONE :D ok moving on.

Since the term started, we've been hearing Mr Ang telling us that a lot of teachers say we're very serious & that we've grown up. Well, in my view, we've gotten worse xD I mean, Year 11s student SHOULD:
- be more serious in what they do
- carry ourselves well for we're the "oldest" in school
- have a more matured mind
- dont go to the playground
- [girls] hate rain
- [girls] hate getting scruffed on the legs, arms etc
- [girls] hate getting their nails broken
- dont like getting their uniform dirty

But its so not like that with us. The first thing on the list is already off.
Be serious in what we do.
"Nithin stop doing that ur the head boy for goodness sake!"
Nithin: You cant make me stop NYEH! *sticks out tongue*

Carry ourselves well for we're the "oldest"
*pours water onto hand & splashes at Niki*
OI! *splashes back*
-then we hv a water splashing war-

Have a matured mind
Uh. I think this is self explanatory xP

Don't go to the playground
"wanna go to the playground?"
OK :D
*gets to the playground*
I WANNA SIT ON THE SWING FIRST!
NO WAY I WAS HERE FIRST
-then yeah u get the idea-

[girls]

Hate rain

*starts to drizzle*

Girls come into the shade, its starting to rain!

WTF?? NO D:

Hate getting scruffed on the legs, arms etc

OW i got a paper cut! D:

. . . stop complaining, hv u seen the scratches on MY leg??

Hate getting their nails broken

Normally: OMG my nail broke D:

Girls from my class: Oh my nail broke. *starts biting to make it look even again* all done :D

Don't like getting their uniforms dirty
"LETS GO PLAY IN THE PUDDLES :D"
we cant..we'd get in deep shit if we get our uniforms dirty.
"oh yeah.. damn.."
*both sit in shade & stares at puddles*
I REALLY WANNA PLAY IN THE PUDDLE DDDDDD:

LOL. So yeah basically thats us xD oh & one more thing.
"boys, u should be gentle to the girls."
Faiz : thats not fair! We dont get to be rough on them but they'll be rough to us! D:<
Me : *evil grin* hehehe no we wont Faiz >:)

Ah & we must not forget our fail moments x)

Niki says:
Pauline is the nicest person on earth, second to Hitler :)
-aww i love you Nike ;)-

Calmed.

2010-10-01T17:48:00.000+08:00

Yes, as the title goes i do feel like i've calmed down :) In my previous post [which seems like i posted months ago] i had: confirmation, majors exam & school exams. First off, Confirmation & secondly, as of today. My majors exam's over too :D

Confirmation
I went for the rehearsal after my ballet & they were just about to start. Lucky me. Anyway the rehearsals went fine & we had a system when we were about to get confirmed. It was the, after you get confirmed you go away in such a way ppl can take pictures sort of thing. So ok that was fine. Hymns, the hymns picked by Ms Terri were so nice, if only my class sang louder. & yeah. OH PICTURES :D i'll post some here. But most of the epic ones are on Nicholas's fb so. Yeah do check them out :) Nicholas Ruben, btw.

Pinto & Toffee's gay moment xD
Jul & I [like DUH :)]
That's Nicholas :)
MOMMY :D
Mel, Daphne, Charmaine & i had the same candle xD

& yeah thats pretty much it :)

Tired.

2010-09-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

Lately, i've been feeling oh so tired & idk why D: one factor could be because of school, or ballet or even church .__. but the factor i think is best fit is due to the weather. Its like hot, most of the day then it rains. Or like yday it just rained the whole day. Now, i'm the sort of person who can fall asleep in hot & rainy weather. I feel like such a pig ugh *slaps forehead* & lately, i've been craving for "pin pei" mooncakes .___. [they're the type that u hv to put in the fridge, the not baked ones]

Confirmation's in 3 days, majors exams for ballet is in less than a week & igcse's in 2 months[according to Mrs I if we cut out the sleeping & eating & bla bla]
.______.

I am going to go crazy.

Ever After

2010-09-12T17:07:00.002+08:00

"I wanted to ask... Have you ever, in the slightest of chances, loved me as your own?"

Who could love a stone in their shoe?

Oh i love that movie, its really good. Should watch it.
Ever After - A Cinderella Story

My daddy found my pendrive :D

Random songs :D

2010-09-10T18:35:00.001+08:00

Who gives Faith for the fa-fa-faith,
Who gives Grace for the gra-a-ce,
Who gives Hope for the ho-ho-hope
Who gives the Love for the lo-o-ove

Who is that man [who is that man]
I wanna shake his hand,
For he lives in me, & he set me free
& he died for you & me
WAOOOOH!
Doop doop do do do doop doop do do di doop doop do do-o-o-p
[repeat everything]

Who is the king of the jungle? [ooo ooo]
Who is the king of the sea? [bubble bubble bubble]
Who is the king of the universe, the king of you & me
Well i say:
J E S U S YES! He is the king of me
He is the king of the jungle &
The king of you & me [bubble bubble bubble]

LSS: Just The Way Your Are - Bruno Mars

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they’re not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She’s so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don’t see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say
When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she’d let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She’s so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you’re searching for
Then just stay the same

So don’t even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Heh heh

2010-09-10T17:48:00.004+08:00

Sry for not posting for so long. Been busy lazy at the same time xP i shall blog a little on what happened during my camp at camerons.

Left quite on time from ipoh at around 7.10 & reached plus minus three hours later.

In the bus, on the way.
The ride was anything but nice & smooth but epic stupid things happened xD Neil & Mike were going on high with the song Crazy & Justin Cheang took pictures of Toffee & Pinto sleeping xD & the tamil speaking gang were blasting out stupid music from the back of the bus .__.

At the barre center.
Smth light before first session started. Now, i dnt really rmbr any of the sessions except for one where the gave us each a flower & they wanted us to talk to it. Yes, you heard me, TALK to it. Obviously i heard nothing from my flower, either that or my flower didnt understand english. But during the course of the camp, everyone opened up to each other & it was a really great thing to experience, Jul & i became rather close to Nicholas :) He is one great guy. One of the things we had to bring was our tissue box which we had to decorate, i got notes in my box & so did everyone else :) then we had a ghost story session on the second night. OMG the second night. Pinto dragged me to the side of the bus to make me stare into the bus, at night! UGH! Stupid Pinto D: Toffee was more understanding >< But it was scary though the bus at night, with ur mind playing tricks on u & all. I commented that, in the driver's seat, it looked like there was someone looking at u cause of the shadow & the coats draped over the seat. & that freaked Toffee out, big time. We also sang songs =D
Shall make another post on the songs we sang.

In the bus, on the way home.
Ugh bus ride again but definitely a stupid moments time xD

Stupid moments
Me: What's my name Mike?
Mike: Uh..[some name starting with J]
Me: NO.
Mike: Then?
Me: Angel =.=
Mike: OOH! ANGEL!
Me: .__. Its not la!
Mike: i noe i noe! Its Soo Lee! :D
Me: ........ *gives up*

Facilitator: Shape ur clay into what u feel at the moment
*moulds*
Faci: Oh, u feel like a rat?
Jo: .__. cat teacher...
Faci: OHHHH! A CAT!!
*walks away*

*accidentally rips flower petal*
SHIIIIIT!
faci: ur flower will DIE.
.__. NOOOOOO!

"ALOY!" =DD

Now, what ur about to read is not a stupid moments time. It is a zomgicoulddie moment.
Nicholas: She's...beautiful
AHHH omg*tok*billehchinbob! That was the sweetest moment ever. Jul & i hv never, NEVER heard someone call a girl beautiful & with that much of sincerity before. So during the whole camp we kept on asking him to repeat those 2 words. & then he told us that he melts whenever he sees her & that he'd just drop dead & die if he could meet her. *Sigh*

I'm gonna miss my form 4 Sunday School class =( no matter how many times we dreaded going to Sunday School, no matter how many times we dissed the teacher, what kept us going all this while wasnt the teacher or cause we wanted to learn. But it was cause of the company we all learned to accept & appreciate. It really is remarkable how we all can bond so well despite only seeing each other once a week. Sigh, to my form 4 class of OMPH i shall miss u.

"The camera was the best invention, because it captures memories"

- Daphne Leong, confirmation class '10

2010-09-03T16:33:00.000+08:00

As you hv paid attention too i hv added a wish list on my blog :D & yes if any kind soul were to get me any of those i'd be much obliged. Anyway yeah nothing from me here today.p/s: dnt expect me to blog anything till monday night ;D

Camerons camp is tmr & i am not excited at all .___.

DWARF RABBITS

2010-09-02T16:47:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh they are so adorable. I want one D:

look at the little ears! =D

Dwoopie ears =D

New mission, find dwarf rabbits in Ipoh. Gosh my cousin's picture can do a lot to me xP

Oh no.

2010-09-02T15:51:00.000+08:00

Camp's like a day away & i've already packed 90% of my stuff .__. really i hope this camp's gonna be a good one cause its gonna be the last camp the form 4's are gonna hv together. & if its boring then i'll hate camerons even more than i already do. I shall let u all read my To Bring list because its just oh so boring.

Things to bring:
- BIBLE [because we're So gonna use it every waking moment of the camp]
- Journal [which, is the exercise book for SS we never use xP]
- Pens, colour pencil [gonna bring my WHOLE pens case muahahaha >:D]
- Cellophane tape
- Glue
- Scissors [to trim ppl's hair while they're sleeping *evil laugh* lol]
- Sheets of coloured A4 paper [how many? Don't noe, they didnt mention .__. So imma bring 2 pink & 2 yellow cause thats all i hv xD]
- Shawl/sarong/scarf
- Bookmark [yes my awesome one :D]
- Cut figure of a girl/boy [who wants to bet the guys will cut a guy while the girls will cut a girl hmm?]
- 1 white paper plate [.___. where the HELL am i gonna get ONE paper plate?]
- Vitamins [dont need :)]
- Bathroom slippers [dont bother xP]
- Wrapped tissue box [CHECK! :D]
- Socks [um. Maybe one pair]

So there you hv it. Obviously the []-ed comments were mine xP sigh i really hope the bus ride's gonna be smooth. OH PANADOL! :O *adds onto to bring list*
"All handphones will be confiscated at the beginning of the camp" well yeah ok i'll surrender my phone. I didnt mention which of my phones i'll surrender though x)

Yeah..

2010-08-30T20:38:00.001+08:00

Okay so currently i've crossed out items on my to do list
- ~~find a new empty tissue box~~
- ~~decorate new found tissue box~~
- ~~make bookmark~~ ~~with~~ ~~favourite bible passage~~
- start packing cause we hv a 15 item list to bring
- ~~kill Queenie~~ [still wrong list]
- go over list after packing.

I watched Grown Ups today with Jasmin, Vinny, Niki & Kshitij. Got to catch up with them x) That movie is shit funny. Whoever wants to watch it stop thinking & watch it. Anyway yeah Kshitij was telling us about his many adventures with Daniel, Kevin Hong Yan & the rest of the chinese gang when they went to KL. What bothered me the most is that his parents let him. I mean they hardly let him go out with friends yet they let him go off to KL. Thats like ur parents letting u hv sex but not letting u hv a boyfriend/girlfriend! .___. mhh anyway yeah i had fun still. Uhm. Yeah thats all. Bye.

I find it unfair how i invite people to read my blog
But they dnt let me read their blog.
Maybe i should just uninvite them.

arghhhh

2010-08-29T13:16:00.000+08:00

School's in a couple of weeks & i'm oh so reluctant to go back. I met Mrs I today in church & she just made my day :) gonna meet up with Tolee later ;D [hehehe]

Besides today the week's been pretty dull, as usual things only happen during weekends. Went to BM on Friday then crossed over to Penang & went shopping :D i bought a total of 7 shirts & i skirt :DD haha epic. Anyway yeah thats pretty much it.

My mission[s]:
- find a new empty tissue box [the maid threw away mine D:]
- decorate new found tissue box
- make bookmark with favourite bible passage .___.
- start packing cause we hv a 15 item list to bring
- ~~kill Queenie~~ oh wait wrong list xP
- um... oh yes go over list. Again.

Confirmation camp's in 4 days :O confirmation's less than 3 weeks :OOO

Temporary Home

2010-08-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

Temporary Home - Carrie Underwood

Little boy, 6 years old
A little too used to being alone
Another new mom and dad
Another school
Another house that'll never be home

And when people ask him how he likes this place
He looks up and says with a smile upon his face

This is my temporary home
Its not where i belong
Windows and rooms that i'm passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where i'm going
I'm not afraid because i know
This is my temporary home

Young mom on her own
She needs a little help got no where to go
Shes looking for a job looking for a way out
Cause a halfway house will never be a home

At night she whispers to her baby girl
Someday we'l find our place in this world

This is our temporary home
Its not where we belong
Windows and rooms that we're passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where we're going
I'm not afraid because i know
This is our temporary home

Old man, hospital bed
The room is filled with people he loves
And he whispers don't cry for me
I'll see you all someday

He looks up and says
I can see gods face

This is my temporary home
Its not where i belong
Windows and rooms the i'm passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where i'm going
I'm not afraid because i know
This was my temporary home

This is our temporary home

The song's music video made me cry :(

Dreams .____.

2010-08-23T19:16:00.000+08:00

19/8/10
I woke up & was in an unfamiliar place. I somehow ended up in college with Jul. Then we were walking around checking the out the place. Then there was a big riot all of a sudden. Like somehow we fast forwarded to somewhere in the middle of the term. There were a lot of students going everywhere. Then i saw Jul & she looked furious with me. Shortly she gave me a call & she told me she didnt want to be friends with me anymore >< & hung up. Then, sudden blurness. I woke up knowing i just had a dream. But i didnt actually wake up. Instead i woke up from a dream IN my dream >< i knew this cause i 'woke up' to the same college surroundings. I was relieved in my dream & wanted to tell Jul, but instead i met this new girl, i cant rmbr her face but i noe we've not met before. Ever. but i rmbr we were laughing so i guess we got along well. One moment i was laughing with the new girl the next i was in a bike shop. Comparing prices & asking the guy how much a 'no brand bike' was compared to a branded one like Yamaha. "well, one's 158 & the other's 183" yes, he said those figures. then i somehow was in a car with my parents telling them about the bike prices. I really really woke up this time.

20/8/10
There was an old man, the grumpy & never smiling kind, & following him was a boy, about my age. I've never seen the boy before but i do rmbr that he had fair skin & was quite handsome. They kept on going after my stuff cause apparently i was in a race with my parents.idk if they were competitors or not but they were just always after my stuff. Then we, parents & i, had to find this book. I found it & tried to avoid the man & his follower. Blurness again. But i do rmbr yelling out "i knew it! I just knew you were gonna take it from me!". I also rmbr yelling at the old man & the boy, saying how much i hated them & how much they disgusted me or smth like that. Whatever it was, i was pissed. At them. I turn to the boy & asked him why he was doing this & he just smiles at me. Then somehow i saw my cousin .___. in the bookshop lining up to pay. Idk why but i apologised to him about my behavior, he said smth but i can't rmbr what. I woke up.

*copied from the notes i wrote, on the same days i had the dreams, from my phone & yes i do notice that my 2nd dream was more epic than the first*

clenches teeth & nods very patiently

2010-08-22T18:58:00.000+08:00

Lets start with yday at the formation. First hour Jul & i were saved because miraculously there was wifi! :O so yeah. Then nothing much. Except for this certain idiot who was so ohmygodiwannahangYOUupsidedownonthecross stupid. Then later on Father Micheal [who was our speaker for the formation] showed a short clip on how the people in the US do P&W. Just imagine Hillsong Ipoh x10000. & ths\at stupid idiot commented that its nothing, just a music concert. OMG the whole youth table was like *glares at the stupidomgbbqshit stupid idiot*. After that lunch & David Foong is so omg funny xD
A stupid moment during formation
*Father Micheal explains the church of Basilica*
"Isnt basilica the thing for breast implants?"
"LOL NO. Thats silica!"
XDDD [notice no names were mentioned]

[Oh fuck, why oh why didnt they just bash u up huh? I mean i'm not promoting violence. Ok maybe i am in ur case but u deserve it no? GAH]

SUNDAY : FAMILY DAY
Family day was so. Irritating in the beginning but it got better then bumpy then ok again. JUL & I PAINTED PINTO & MICHEAL'S NAILS BLACK XD quote from Amelia:
"Pinto looks goth but Micheal just looks gay" LOL XD
I was supposed to be dunked first, but yeah Isaac was on popular demand xD so yeah in the end we were all fine. Another quote from dear Amelia:
Jul: What's that guy's name again?
Amelia [eating danish]: Jere*slurp*my
Jul: WHAT? Vaginamy? LOL
*bursts out with roaring laughter*
Ahh good ol Fishball Amelia :)
Btw Jul if ur reading this i forgot to tell you. While i was filling water balloons with Jeremy [no not vaginamy ur brother Jeremy] a certain idiot walking with Sam & Marsha passed us. So the situation was as follows:
Me: Sam, Sam! Could i hv a sip please?
Sam: Sure :) *gives me cup*
Idiot: Hello?
Me: *takes sip* thanks. Oh hi Marsha :)
Idiot: HELLO??
Marsha: *waves*
Idiot: HELLOO????
Me: *continues filling water balloons*

Yes Jul, u may love me now :D hahahaha

Anyway yeah that was family day, not that many stalls & not that many people this year :( all cause of the no-more-using-coupons thing. Sigh. Oh yeah, when i went out with my parents. My dad thought i put make up on, but in actual fact is i got sunburnt .___.

So yeah heh :)

Do you have to go home on Friday? Can't you just stay a day longer?

Decisions decisions

2010-08-19T15:30:00.002+08:00

Currently i am deciding whether or not to make my blog private or not. Thing is, if i do privatize my blog, it'll be kind of a hassle. Then again ppl could just ask me to invite them. Oh yeah. Good thing about private blogs is my cbox wont get spammed by lifeless people with their unbearably broken english. So. Yeah, from now on this blog is private :D

On second thought, i'll privatize my blog after the the people i want their emails give me their emails .__.

Hi-ho hi-ho its of to blogging i go :D

2010-08-18T17:38:00.002+08:00

A very special thank you to Lim Hui Zen for giving me this oh-so-wonderful idea of a blog post :D

We were chatting & he gave me the link to a certain someone's blog. Mind u, this person is one of the most annoying, snobbish, stupid, pathetic, wimpy *& it goes on* person in the whole of IIS. Yes i hv mentioned someone before being like what i had just said, but no they are not the same person. Plain bitchy & bitchy but stupid are two different things. ANYWAY, moving on.
I read one of her posts on my school's prom night for the year 11's [Hui Zen's class :)] & she said that it took her 2 hours to get her hair done. & the result? Lets just say the sentence, "Gee i didn't know blow drying my hair took 2 hours" is all i need to say. She apparently spent dunno how many hours picking which dress to wear & God noes what else & the overall result looked like she was prepared for production a night early.
Then Hui Zen points out this post on how she asked a certain guy & got rejected. most of the time i would pity posts like that cause i definitely wouldn't want that to happen to me. But the way she said her broken english sentences was just so. Funny. There was also so much gusto in her sentences i could almost imagine her losing her head. Which just made everything all the more funny xP
Now, don't get me wrong. Its not that i enjoy other people's pain. Well maybe i do sometimes to some people BUT she's just one of those people who deserve all this u noe? They're so full of themselves that sometimes things like that are necessary to knock them back to earth. [or to hell, wherever ;P]

Anyway wow, this has been a long post. I shall stop here :)

OH YEAH i finally rmbred ONE stupid thing that happened during the time i went out with Jul for Hillsong :D but its so... unexplainable xP sry.

Btw, gangs're supposed to help each other & stick together.

Thats the whole point of a gang.

If not we'd just be aquaintances

Serious stuff. Mostly.

2010-08-16T15:56:00.000+08:00

Okay, lets see what i've got so far. *ahem*

Oh yes before i forget, on the day of the Hillsong concert, Jul & i went to Parkson & we had stupid moments & the sad part is i cant rmbr any of them now D: i need Jul to refresh me >< shall get back to u on that. Moving on.

On Saturday, i had my usual things going on & i did wardening for mass. Jul wasnt there but Pinto & Toffee were there =D its hilarious when they were having their ~~intimate~~ moments throughout mass. & when it came to sign of peace, god it was like cupid struck them all over again.

Yesterday, was a *busy* day ;P started off with mass. I did wardening again cause Jul was there this time & as usual we did our usual stupid stuff. Jul singing in her variation of songs which sounded like a chinese chipmunk & yes we got a few stares while we were giggling like stupid idiots xP then was the coffee morning. While Jul went off to change Melenie & i were standing around in the middle of the busyness wondering what the hell to do .__. THEN I FOLLOWED JUL TO DO RATIONS XDD but before that i had to explain to the gay one about the class tshirt design.
Omg it was like explaining to a brick wall =.= *slaps forehead* if he gets the design wrong so help me i will tie him up to a chair & throw him off the 2nd floor then hv everyone in class kick the shit out of him till he cries out for mercy. When he does i shall then proceed to boiling his fingers & feeding him to stray dogs *exhales* oh wait. But then i would hv to TOUCH him. If he gets it wrong i shall wear gloves THEN tie him to the chair & proceed to my torturings for him *inserts evil laugh* come to think of it'll be sad to let him suffer alone so i'll throw in Queenie to sweeten the deal :D *inserts evil laugh 2*
At rations, Uncle Gordon was there & omg he is so. FUNNY XD i couldn't take a decent picture for Jul's folio without failing at the first try due to laughter. We finally went for class & they were watching a movie Jul & i had the best seats in the whole room: next to a certain fellow named Neil xD Jul brought her itouch so she was showing Neil this game which was *cough* stopping sperms with condoms. Neil was so *grossed* out by it that when we had to go back to our classroom he was yelling at Jul "Ok! Go back class i can play the condom game! CONDOM GAME!!!" it was a slapsfacethenproceedstoaskingwhoareyou? moment.
After that was youth meeting, Dicky & Amelia had happy time while the others [me, Jul, Neil, Nigel & pinto] were fooling around. Then Jul gets a phone call from her dad. Situation was as follows.
-Jul answers call & responds accordingly- we're all quiet cause call from parents is a BIG thing xP i was standing at the door & next thing i knew Jul was running in my direction yelling:
"FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKK! WHERE'S DICKY??? -why?- MY DAD'S COMINGGGG!!!!!"
& everyone proceeds to panicking .___. amidst all this Mav arrived & he was caught in everything too xP [again i'm sorry ><]
so yeah after that everything was ok & Mav spent the whole day with me & my parents x)

So, all in all. Sunday was the best day of the week x)

Oh whatever to u just cause i dnt like fish & i ~~hate~~ Dragonball

Nyehh >xP

grins

2010-08-14T18:00:00.000+08:00

I just read, a certain blog belonging to a certain person i know. & boy, u just made my day. Though u typed out my full name & posted that horrendous picture of me, i still love you.

& um, to the friend who motivated my certain friend to post that post.
I read ur post too xP & i find it a very ~~aww~~ factor hehehe [don't kill me ><]

A-n-y-w-a-y, thats all from me now.

I love you this much

*points to somewhere very[xinfinity] far*

Pictures by me :)

2010-08-14T17:28:00.002+08:00

The first picture is my first "pro" picture :DD & second picture's a picture of morning glories :) & the last picture's my little doggie's version of the classic ";P"

Pictures :)

2010-08-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

i've decided to upload pictures & not just give the links cause the beta version of my blog thingy is oh-so-incredibly fast :D

Hillsong

2010-08-11T15:43:00.001+08:00

Okay, so i just got back from the seminar & yeah it was okay. I thought we'd get to do some writing but we didnt. Anyway still havent gotten our goodie bags though. Unless the file with 2 sheets of paper * a pencil WERE the goodie bags .__.

Anyway, i'm kinda excited about the concert tonight cause it means there'll be jumping & screaming & praising ;D so.. Yeah ;D
Oh yeah, i met a lot of ppl i knew today :O i met,
Nat, Chang, Andrew Tan, the 2 guys from the stadium shop, Ben & Sean Wilson. Then there was Hui Zie, Jon, Jason, Eve, Victor & Xing Xin. I met new people too like, Jonathan Sim, Johnson? & his girlfriend. Sorry but..i cant seem to rmbr her name now D: i feel horrible. & last but not least i met Julianne :D which doesnt really count though cause i went to Syuen with her xD

Anyway shall go sleep now hees x)

ohmygawditstuesday ;D

2010-08-10T14:05:00.000+08:00

ITS TUESDAY ITS TUESDAY ITS TUESDAY! & did i mention that its

TUESDAY? :DDDD

yes, i'm going mad.

MONDAY

2010-08-09T18:39:00.000+08:00

Its monday & its the day when i go to the gym to exercise off the monday blues.

Yes its monday, means there only one more day till the Hillsong day =DD [i call it Hillsong day cause yeah going for the seminar too xD] OH & thanks to my music teacher, i read the whole registration code e-mail & discovered that i get a free wristband & goodie bad =D yes, go read ur registration code e-mails *makes shoo-ing gesture*

I'm still sick D= but i guess its better, at least i can talk now. Its just that one sentence consisting of 5 words is followed by a whopping string of 20 coughs. Whichisaboutfourcoughsforoneword, BUT ANYWAY that doesnt matter. *exhales*

Yes i noe i sound high at the moment & yes i am, i blame the half of a slice of cake my mom gave me. Its Secret Recipe's White Chocolate Macadamia cake, got it from aunt's bday celebration yday. Parents & i bought her a cake since her *coughs* busy children can't come back to Ipoh. But she had a great time yday anyway, cause she had us [parents & i + her husband =D]

Anyway yeah, guess thats all form me now. Shall blog tmr =)
[i have now made it a point to post smth at the end of my blogs, sometimes it could be for somebody or it could be an ordinany thing =)]

~~Yes, I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all...~~

Finally

2010-08-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

Finally i got to go out with a friend, finally i got to go out at all [.__.], finally got to go out with Julianne [<3] & finally got my new pointe shoes! Ahhh been waiting ages for them. Now i can take pictures with them =D
I'm very happy with today's "lute" xD
Tmr AV room! =D oh this'll be classic, must rmbr to let William sit near us, by near i mean within earshot. & Pinto too =D
Um, lets see what else...
windowshopwindowshopwindowshopwindowshopwindowshopwindowshop!
sry .____. thats all i can really think abt..
um, i hv a terrible sore throat, so bad that my scream-till-i-hv-to-close-my-eyes voice volume, is ur normal everyday voice volume. But i dont care =D if i did, then i wouldnt hv gotten to eat the jelly ~~ice~~ drink & whatever nonsense i ate today with Jul =D
I ate so much cough mixture at one go this afternoon & fell asleep while watching tv, luckily Jul called me, if not i would've missed our outing.
If u are sitting there reading this & thinking to urself that this blog post sounds like i'm listing out stuff, then give urself a pat on the back cause that is EXACTLY WHAT I'M DOING =D if that thought never crossed ur mind, slap urself & WAKE UP :)

Well, guess thats it for now. I'll, blog again tmr. Hopefully ;P

has it ever occured to u that,

maybe, possibly,

in some weird but wonderful way,

that even scientists cannot understand why,

& words even poets cannot describe,

that i love you?

BACK

2010-08-01T16:22:00.000+08:00

WOOOOOO! I've never been so glad to be back in ipoh =D I missed the warm air & i missed everything that happened in ipoh D: sigh oh well.
Anyway, nothing much to say. Just wanted to show that

I'M BACK

I missed you. But did you miss me?

This'll be a doozy

2010-07-30T11:25:00.000+08:00

So yeah, today's the day i go off to Camerons. Yayy.. *dry cheer* anyway, sicne its bore town i thought i'd be a good girl & bring along my holiday homework xP [yes i noe, the universe must be orbiting the wrong way & i hv no idea of that made sense or not.___.]
MOVING ON. I'll be missing ss this week D: as much as i dnt like to see the gay one, but now that my class's somewhat opened up to each other more i really want to go now a days xD sigh looks like no dose of Bubbly, or William or JUL D: or even pinto this week. Sigh..

Its almost the day, & i wont be around. Sigh. This sucks.

Anyway, to my avid reader, [Eve xP] i hope u were entertained a little bit by this xP cause really idk what else to say. Till after the 3 days ;]

First day

2010-07-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

The official first day of holidays today, & i actually did smth profitable xP i.did.MATH =OO yeah anyway, the day passed by pretty fast today, kinda felt like i was in school, just that in plain clothes & with parents. Halfway, or pretty much during intervals of the day, i suddenly rmbred random things. Things like:
the link in my previous blog,
William[from ss]'s: "OH NO U DIDNT!"
William[again] with his random faces xD
Pinto[ss] pronouncing William's 2nd name. "A-c-c-c-acius" with his funny belaka face xD
Me owning Queenie during ss xP *hands her sheet of paper "what's this for?" "for the tshirt dumbnut. Oh wait no, its for fun" *gives the wtf face* *evil laugh*
[u can guess who's line belongs to who xP]
Nicholas's "im gonna fuck u if u dnt shut up" look xDDD
Link
I find this a very 'owned' moment x)

I cant believe what's happening now a days. Everywhere i go i hear people backstabbing each other. Even in, no scratch that ~~especially in church~~. Its so, sudden. Like recently, a very very very close-knit class suddenly just...broke away. I'm so very worried about my class now, my ss class. Last year, we wouldnt even talk to ppl outside our class clicks. Now, even PINTO talks to everyone. & that is one HUGE difference. Its just so wasted if we work so hard to bind ourselves together only to break up again :( sigh.

lock me in ur heart,
and t~~hrow away~~ the key

Holidays

2010-07-23T15:26:00.000+08:00

Its summer holidays, yay. It was the most fun & random end of academic year party this year. & since we're changing our uniforms, everyone signed on everyone's shirt x)

Sean: i'll miss being taller than u :(

Usama: i'll miss u being our class monitor, u were always such a darling doing ur job

Ibby: ahh what else can i say?

Sean & Ibby cried xP means they'll miss us more heh.

Sigh..good times. Will miss u, my beloved year 10, its time for us to be grown ups cause we're in year 11 now xP

Anyway, while Jul was over last week, we were chacking out quote sites & we found this picture

Link

Its random, yet its so hilarious xD

I'm not sure on what i did was necessary or not...

Maybe i should reconsider...

2010-07-15T18:45:00.000+08:00

Daddy's Poem

Her hair was up in a pony tail,
her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school,
and she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried,
for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees;
a dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seats
One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
for a man who wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?"
she heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one,"
another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back,
she heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offend her,
as she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
came words incredibly unique.
"My Daddy couldn't be here,
because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
and how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories
he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
and taught me to fly a kite.
We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone.
"Cause my daddy's always with me,
even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
he'll forever be in my heart"
With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
beneath her favorite dress.
And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love
of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud.
"I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
but heaven's just too far
You see he was a fireman
and died just this past year
When airplanes hit the towers
and taught Americans to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes,
and she saw him there that day.
And to her mothers amazement,
she witnessed with surprise
A room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they saw before them,
who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
they saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me Daddy,"
to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it,
for each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
by the love of her shining star.
And given the gift of believing,
that heaven is never too far.
They say it takes a minute to find a special
person, an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them, but then an entire
life to forget them.

Dear Daddy...

2010-07-15T17:47:00.000+08:00

Dear Daddy, i'm pretty sure u'll never read this cause unless i show it to u. The reason i'm writing this, is to express myself towards u, the words i can never seem to say to u. I want to say, that i still rmbr the time when mommy was in US, u would take me out for car rides & take me for supper eventhough it was almost my bedtime. But i never minded cause i knew u got off work late. I always loved drawing u cards & pictures about u, me & mommy. I'd draw page after page, filling up book after book with the pictures of us three. I rmbr that u would pick out the bones from my fish pieces & "remove" curry from veggies that i wanted to eat. I rmbr u kissing my forehead goodnight when u come home & i'm asleep. I rmbr u took me to the cinemas to watch Batman & 101 Dalmations. I rmbr i constantly gave u hugs & i rmbr i made mommy a little jealous cause i always stuck to u when she came back to M'sia, cause i was always "daddy's little girl". Yes, daddy, i rmbr all that. But most of all, i rmbr telling u that i loved you very very much almost everyday. Now i realised that i hardly do anything for u. I dont spend time with u, we hardly watch movies together & i dont even hug as often anymore. I always say i love giving hugs but i've stopped giving hugs to my own dad. What kind of daughter am i? I wish i could tell you more, but really that's all i have to say.

I love you daddy.

Sigh. O-kay, from the top.

2010-07-09T19:11:00.000+08:00

Monday was horrible, followed by Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday was awful in terms of school. Monday was completely off, Tuesday was okay-ish.. Blah blah Wednesday. Thursday went to watch Eclipse, i don't care what u Eclipse lovers say but i HATED the movie. Idk if it was the no 1 bestselling movie in the U.S. the only scene i liked was the fighting scene.

Anyway, today yeah its been a pretty much relaxed day. Played Taboo in school with my class & i hv brought home hw to do. That aside, i was reading this thingo. Can't really rmbr from where, could be a book, or from the net or maybe its just from my brain .__. either ways it was from somewhere.

"My boyfriend's away for studies, and so far, he's been surviving. He complains that he's always alone & always having to have dinner alone. But he's never alone cause someway or another there'd be someone who would accompany him. Now, i'm not saying im not happy he's got new friends. But, i'm just wondering why he always says he's alone.

*then bla bla bla smth i dnt rmbr cause its a long paragraph...*

When will he see that I'm here? That he's never alone? When he tells me he feels alone, i try my best to cheer him up. But when i tell him that he'd say, "Get used to it. You have to accept the fact that i'm away now" & he'd just end the discussion like that. Its like i don't even know him anymore.."

Uh...there's actually way more. But i can't rmbr anymore D= anyway yeah that shall be my blog post for the day x)

Confirmation! :O

2010-07-05T18:05:00.000+08:00

Oh goodness goodness me. It's already my year on confirmation =OO yes, this is exactly one of those things when as a kid i always went "mehh, its so far away..." & that includes other things too like driving *evil laugh at Julianne*, final exams & going away for college. Its this point in life when i actually look back & ask myself, "where the heck did all the 15 years go to?". Ahh, now i noe what my seniors mean by its scary. One minute ur happily playing in the mud, getting ur knees scraped & not caring & another minute ur having heartaches & boyfriends & another minute ur almost out of school & off to college! =OOOOOO

Gosh, time passed by. Too quickly xP

Moving on, most of us hv givin our confirmation names to Catherine, hence my previous blog. I've decided my name since long ago, if u've been paying attention, but it was interesting how most of my classmates didnt noe what to pick & in that process i discovered one new name. Colette. I've heard of it before but i cant rmbr from where atm. Anyway i find it really cool to see certain classmates of mine actually using the little brains they hv. Or at least appear to hv. Anyway yeah that's all i hv to say for now. Oh yeah one more thing

EXAMS ARE OVER!!! =DDDDD

now i just hv to live through the results .___. fuck.

I'm getting better at accepting facts.

Is there anything u doubt abt ur Catholic faith?

2010-07-04T15:08:00.000+08:00

Yeah, ONE thing. If God loves his children[you & i] so much, why oh why does he put us through so much pain?

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Today, the stupid gay sunday school teacher of mine just. Made me wanna kill him even more. It started by him seeing Jul & i eating innocently before class. That time was supposed to be the time we went into our rooms but yeah im sure 5 mins doesnt hurt. When we enter the class, he says "Oh i saw 2 of ur friends having their bfast just now. I'm sure they're full now" Jul & i were like *glares at the gay one* Later he takes our attendance. He calls out my name & so i look at him. It took him 3 mins, three agonizing minutes staring at his ugly face till he finally sees me. "You are Pauline ah?" i was like -_____- no i'm not. I just wanna stare at ur ugly face for FUN. & i'm designing the shirt for my class since we're confirming this year. "Ok everyone give ur names so that Adeline can design it" "MY name is PAULINE. NOT Adeline"

GAHHHH boo you, gay one. Boo you =.=

I want Tubbies on my blog tooooo D=

I'm still not used to it.

I keep thinking ur only on holiday & i'll see u again tmr when i go to school

Like always...

But it wont be like always

Continuation of previous blog :D

2010-06-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

Yes, i'm feeling very semangat today so i'm doing a continuation of the previous post hee =D

I find this, epic xD

*squeals* PANDA! =DDD

This is stupid. Yet its oh-so-sweet :)

This may be a long run thing to do in real life. But yeah =)

So true xP

~hey you, always on the run, gotta slow it down baby gotta have some fun~ ;)

&, that officially concludes my post for today x) & i hv 3 mins to spare woohoo x)

p/s if the pictures hv been cut off at the ends i am truly sorry. I hv no idea how to fix that yet. Yes i hv tried making it smaller, but i cant seem to do that on blogspot itself & i'm too lazy to resize the pic then save it again & crap like that. So. Yeah.

"Hey you changed ur blog! =DDD"

Technically i changed the colour of it. & yes i've noticed that seeing *I'M* the one who changed it .___.

I miss you...

2010-06-18T18:51:00.000+08:00

Its Friday & i'm at ease already *woots* nothing much today. Oh you know what. I think i shall post pictures. Yes, Yes i shall.

HAHA. Smiling idiot x)

Aww =)

Haha I like her ;D

Thats all for now till next time x)

Golden leaves looked brown to me

My world had less colour

Without you

2010-06-14T19:59:00.000+08:00

Oookay. So i havent been blogging so yeah thats why im blogging now. Been busy with production & prom. Why am i not posting pictures? Cause stupid stupid me forgot to bring a camera. It was such an "aw fuck" moment for both nights ==

Anyway

Production was awesome, it was totally fun boo-ing scarlet when she sang, it was fun cause

1. we were all boo-ing

2. mrs logen was with us

3. she was boo-ing along too ;D

not literally, but she made gestures xPP & i was bombarded with questions like "TAKE PICTURE!" or "YOU LOOKED REALLY GREAT!". Okay they were more of demands rather than questions but yeah u get the idea.

Prom, on the other hand was even more fun. Went to decorate the place at abt 11 am then finished by 1.30. I brought Niki home with me cause she lives too far to go back & forth. Our quote while we were decorating was : "where's mr francis??" went back to heritage at 3.30pm to practise the catwalk & wait for the make up guy & his team. The team arrived at abt 5 smth. Had our make up & hair done, stopping to either pose or shoo Daniel Cheong away cause he was continuously taking pictures - - quote for the time while getting ready for prom:

everyone: Daniel stop taking pictures!

daniel: the battery almost finish already

*1 hour later*

everyone: DANIEL! STOP TAKING PICTURES!

daniel: battery low already!!

*2 hours later*

everyone: *glares at daniel STILL taking pictures*

daniel: BATTERY IS ALMOST FINISH ALREADY![his english isnt that good, dnt mind it]

*2 1/2 hours later*

daniel: hey, my camera died..

everyone: YAY!

the fashion show was a huge success, this may sound vain, but the loudest cheer i could hear was when i did my turn for the walk .___. & the loudest "OOOOHHH!!!!" cause there was a partnering thingo for the catwalk xP the food was ok as well. Didnt eat much, didnt wanna seem like a pig xP

anyway guess thats it this time. =)

me likes

2010-06-05T17:15:00.001+08:00

2010-06-02T18:55:00.000+08:00

No more questions, period

2010-05-30T16:58:00.000+08:00

Currently doing my assignment on abortion. & i came across this:

Abortion

by unknown.

Mommy? Can you hear me? I'm not very old, so you probably can't. But If you can, I love you, Mommy. I love you for bringing me here, In your soft and cozy womb. I think I'll fit here perfectly for a while. Until it's time to get out.
Mommy? Can you hear me? I'm getting quite big, don't you think? You found out about me today, and you seemed a bit annoyed. Why, Mommy, why? Maybe you just need time to get over the shock? I love you, Mommy.
Mommy? Can you hear me? I sure can hear you! You yell a lot, and many people yell at you. I won't yell at you when I'm out of this place. All because I love you, Mommy.
Mommy? Can you hear me? I hear a lot of new people, People who aren't saying things I understand. Things like abortion and gone. What do those words mean, Mommy? I still love you Mommy, no matter what they may mean.
Mommy? Can you hear me? Something isn't feeling right. What are you doing to me? Mommy, I love you! But do you love me, too?
Mommy? I know you can't hear me, cause I'm all the way up in Heaven. Mommy, I still love you. But sometimes It may be hard to believe. I understand now what you did to me, But sometimes I wonder if you made the right choice. Did you Mommy, Did you?

Ahh it really breaks my heart thinking about this. Now, I noe that ur prolly thinking "what if it happened to u?" & my answer'd be. 'I'll blog about it after my assignment k? Promise ;)

2010-05-29T00:47:00.000+08:00

Is that what u really think of me? Am i that ugly of a person?

I noe its irrational to think of it that way. But really. I cant help it.

Beastly.

2010-05-26T16:55:00.000+08:00

Kyle Kingsbury, you are beastly. -Beastly

Kyle Kingsbury learns, that not everything in life can be bought with money. Especially when it comes to matters of the heart.

Okay, i noe im supposed to be studying for my end of term exams. But i couldnt help but to read Beastly by Alex Finn all thanks to Hui Zie for showing me the trailer & later on telling me its a book. Not saying that i'm complaining abt reading the book though & i definitely wanna watch the movie.

Briefly, Beastly is a modern day Beauty & the Beast, it even has the magic mirror & the witch turning him cause of his cold-heartedness. If you've watched Beauty & the Beast then you'd understand. The author says its more of another french film, but yeah i dnt rmbr what its called. One thing good about this book, its not all that fictional. As in, it's kind of down to earth cause yeah Kyle Kingsbury's dad is really really rich. So. Yeah. In this world, as long as u hv money most things're possible, no?

Overall i really like the book & i am waiting anxiously for the movie to come out. I seriously hope the movie doesnt suck cause really. Its a good book.

I miss you...

I hv decided...

2010-05-24T17:39:00.000+08:00

Okay, so i'm on year 10 third term & its a little late/ But i finally noe what im gonna do when i finish igcse. What am i doing? Social science, majoring in psychology =D Yes. After countless months & finally getting to sit down with my parents to talk about it i hv come to a decision.

I'm not really sure what typr of psychology i'm gonna take yet, i'm gonna see what are the types exactly first. Ahh i feel much better now that i noe what i wanna to =DD

Production's coming up & my group's DONE with the song =DD they wanted a good show by us. & we're gonna give them one ;) but after production's the one thing i've been waiting for, for a long time.

IIS PROM. & who's in charge in organizing it? Why, the prefects of year 10. Of course ;P I'm really excited about all this, seeing its this current batch of year 11's that mean most to me as to compared to the other year 11s.

Oh today, Mrs Shan told Jasmin & i the best news we've heard yet. 'Cause Jasmin, Niki & i agreed on having a fashion show again this year. So far there're 6 girls. Mrs Shan told us Chic & Sleek agree on making the dresses again for this year & the person in charge wants 6 girls! How awesome is that? =DDDD

Anyway, guess thats all from me =)

-still waiting for June 11th '10-

Back from the dead? Maybe.

2010-05-14T17:26:00.000+08:00

Ooh wow. It seems i've been neglecting my little bloggie here havent i? So sorry bloggie *strokes computer*.

Anyway. Let's see, how my life's been so far. Um, hectic, boring, hectic, slow, hectic, great oh and did i mention hectic? yes, year10's finally starting to kick into full gear & honestly. I'm pretty scared at the pace its going at. I'm pretty scared at myself as well. For one thing. I've actually been doing my homework. As in at home & not in school. SHOCKING, no? Another thing is, Mrs Sevilla pointed out that we look much older now. As in compared to Year 9 she said we look older. Which just resulted to her feeling ancient xP but hey, can't blame her for pointing that out. Year 10 is a very big leap.

Ah i miss the old days. When homework was writing alphabets or, better yet, no homework at all! =D problems were way, way, WAY simpler last time to. Example? Um.

Teen problems:

Creditless phones, HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK DEADLINES, bitchy ppl.

Children problems:

Should i eat the lolly now? Or later? *pauses* i think i'll just eat it now so that i wont hv to carry it *opens wrapper & eats lolly* gosh that was so much of thinking. *wipes 'sweat' off forehead*

Pain has a new definition as well.

Teen pains:

Heartaches, heartbreaks, cramps. & also pain in the asses xP

Children pains:

*falls down* i got a boo boo! *frowns*

Yeap, hence the quote :

"I wish i could turn time back to when my biggest pain was a scrapped knee"

Oh yeah, life sure was easier when we were kids. Kids dnt judge how a friend is gonna be like by the size of their "bumps" but cause they actually take time to get to know and enjoy the company of the other. Kid's innocence is very eye opening at times. Ah but well. We'll all hv to move on still =)

Guess i've blogged [or crapped] enough for now. Till next time x)

LGMH.

2010-05-07T19:10:00.000+08:00

Just now, my dearest friend, Regine, gave me the link to this site called gives me hope. And its got really, touching stories. Its like the opposite of fml.

Link

Here are some of the stories i like so far :

My 14-year-old brother is mentally retarded and only has the mind of a 3-year-old.
Every time I cry in front of him, he brings me a Kleenex without being asked to. If I'm too upset to take it, he shoves it in my face as an attempt to wipe my tears himself.
He GMH everyday

I saw on the news about a 95 year old female going to her first prom.
Who is taking her? Her great grandson.
His unconditional love GMH.

Today was the first time I'd ever flown by myself.
As I was sitting at my gate, I was approached by an old woman holding a stuffed animal. She asked me if I was traveling by myself and then proceeded to hand me the bear -- so I "would never have to travel alone."
Her love for strangers GMH.

Yea, i noe some of the stories can hv other stories in ur small little minds but just. yeah. Just go to the site k? And read with an open mind. It doesnt take up much energy.

Hm.

2010-05-06T18:13:00.000+08:00

Currently LSSing to.

Goodbye Girl - David Gates
All your life you've waited
for love to come and stay
and now that I have found you
you must not slip away.

I know its hard believin'
the words you've heard before,
but darling you must trust them just once more.

'Cause baby, goodbye doesn't mean forever.
Let me tell you goodbye doesn't mean we'll never be together again.
If you wake up and I'm not there I won't be long away
'cause the things you do my goodbye girl
will bring me back to you.

I know you've been taken
afraid to hurt again.
You fight the love you feel for me
instead of givin' in.
But I can wait forever,
a-helpin' you to see
that I was meant for you
and you for me.

So remember goodbye doesn't mean forever.
Let me tell you goodbye doesn't mean we'll never be together again.
Though we maybe so far apart, you still would have my heart.
So forget your past, my goodbye girl 'cause now your home at last.

2010-05-04T17:25:00.000+08:00

Many people ask "what is love?" well. Love is a word that is often overused. When someone says "I love those shoes" they don't literally mean they "love" the shoes. They just like them. Our generation has told too many people "I love you". People say it like it's nothing. Just something that you are "supposed" to say. It begins to lose its true meaning. No one understands what love really means until they meet that one person that you want to be with every second of every day. The one person that could make you fall apart. The person that can control your mood. The person that, if they died, you wouldn't know how you were going to go on. The person that can make you smile when you want to cry. The person that no matterhow much they have hurt you, you still want them, & couldn't imagine being without them. The person that when just imagining who they have been with & what they have done with them could just bring tears to your eyes. Some people mistake that if you love someone, everything has to be perfectwith them. That you will never fight, never argue. No. That just appears to be love, & what we want tobelieve is love. When you love someone, you are with them through thick & thin, the good & thebad. So when using the word "love", think about it. Don't just say it because you think it's the right moment to say it, or because you thinka you are supposed to say it. Say it, because you mean it.

2010-05-01T22:42:00.000+08:00

i find this true & not true at the same time xP ahhhh well.

2010-04-30T15:52:00.000+08:00

Finally its FRIDAY =DDDDDDDD gosh this week's been so. Bleh. Good thing bout this weekend's that we hardly hv any homework =DDDDD *woots* i warn u. This shall be a short post.

Anyway thats it. Shall wait till smth happens till i blog again =DDD

-told u it was gonna be short xP

♥

2010-04-26T17:16:00.000+08:00

I just read Maverick's blog, clicked back to my blog & just got a serious *big-flash*ar!-my-eyes moment *nods nods & pauses* & now with the blog =D

The weekend for me wasnt exactly free and easy. I think the only day that i could actually relax, take things slow & do hw was Friday .____. and even then i didnt finish everything cause i was so confident i'll hv time later during the weekend .___________________________. Damn it. Anyway, i was proud to say that i managed to finish at least half of it on Friday anyway =) Shall list out my weekend. *ahem*

SATURDAY.

Ballet. Class was actually boring on that day. Yes Ching dear, if ur reading this, class is more fun with u in it ;) next was going to Jusco with parents. Was supposed to meet Jul there, but parents went & left jusco earlier than i estimated, resulting to a huge part of Jul freaking her pants off. Finally got to Jul's hse in time to follow Jul's mom & Jul out to fetch Jul's dad. [i think thats the most times i used the word "Jul" in my sentence .__.] ANYWAY. As usual, Julianne had some quotes up her sleeve that always brightens my day ;DDD

*out of nowhere in the car*

jul: EWWWW LOOK AT THE CHICKEN!

pau: OMG. Its HUGE!

aunt connie: There're more under the truck, see?

jul & pau: EEEE

aunt connie: These chickens hv been castrated

*pause*

jul: what does that mean?

aunt connie: Their balls hv been cut off

*another pause*

jul: BUT ISNT THAT NURTURED?

*looks at Jul with the 'are you stupid?!' look*

*enters Jul's dad, mom tells him bout what their brilliant daughter said*

uncle coleman: I think u meant nuted.

*WHOLE CAR BURSTS OUT LAUGHING*

[forgive my spelling. Not very sure of it, but i DO noe what it means xP]

*in parkson[yeah, we went to parkson instead], sushi king eating*

pau: You noe, most smart ppl are only good bookwise and not streetwise?

jul: Yeah! i noe i noe! Its so like . . . sort of thing!

pau: Yeah, there's this guy in my class, he's damn smart but he asks really stupid everyday questions. He's just short of asking me whats a toaster!

*remains silent*

pau: Like that day, he asked me whats a zester! Can u believe it? So i explained to him and all that la. *looks at Jul* Ur awfully quiet?

jul: *looks embarrassed* well...when u said he was short of asking whats a toaster, i was thinking, WOW that IS dumb. But then when u said he asked whats a zester... I DONT NOE WHAT A ZESTER IS TOO! *exasperated look*

pau: 0______0 *BURSTS OUT LAUGHING*

*sunset mass, with Jul again. She was reader i was cantor =DDD*

*listens to hymn being played & sings along softly*

our bench neighbour: TRILALA! YA TUHAN TRILALA! TRILALA, YA TUHAN TRILALA!

*jul & i stare at her, then stare at each other & looks down & starts giggling in 'silent prayer'*

Favourite quote:

*gives the D= look* I'M ONLY STUPID WHEN IM WITH YOU!

HAHA XD ♥

SUNDAY.

Woke up at 7 smth & reached the Simee old folks home at almost 8 i think xPP had a seriously HUGE ASS GREAT time =DDDD with Jul, Andrew, Nikki & Jade xDD i dont think i can describe, what we did. It was basically, stupidity + highness xD stayed there till around 1.40, reached home at 2 =) thought. THOUGHT could catch up on hw since Mel's bday thing was only at 5. Instead, dad surprises me by saying, 'hurry up, we're going to Jusco NOW' after i come out of the shower .____. so yeah, walked till it was time for Mel's bday thing. MEL, UR BDAY CAKE WAS AWESOME =DD who the cake was for well, that's debatable ;D then had early bday dinner for mommy =) came home, was dead tired & didnt even attempt doing hw.

Overall, yeah it was a great weekend, but damn it took up a lot of energy thought >< time ="">

HAPPY BDAY MOMMY!!! =DDD

&&& thank u Hui Zen & Victor, ur gift was really great =)

2010-04-23T14:38:00.000+08:00

I celebrated my boyfriend's bday yday. And what did i get him? Deodorant. *nodsnods* from marks & spencers =D [hope u like it =)]

Lets see what i hv to do this weekend. Go help out at old folks home food fair, go out with Jul to buy mel a present & Actually go to Mel's bday party. Seems like an already busy weekend no? Nope, obviously not, i still hv ballet, sunday school & oh yes how could anyone forget. Homework *hisses at the fact* sigh. I hate econs hw, they're all essay questions D=

Ahh well. Better get started then.

*heavy sigh*

It should.

2010-04-21T17:43:00.000+08:00

It should, hell yes it should.

It should be a sin,

For parents to give

Their kids shit for playing in the rain.

2010-04-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

My third and final term of year 10 has begun. And its no fun at all.

So far, we got, a new maths teacher and some of the classes have changed places. Unfortunately our class teacher still remains the same & still as *shall not mention it* as ever. And, lets not forget. We've got tonnes of homework to do. The only few periods Nikki and i look forward to now a days are econs. For one thing cause the business room's the coldest room among all the classrooms and Mr Francis gives us breaks. Cause according to him: "If you tell ur mom, 'mom, dont bother me for 1 hour i'm studying' its all. Bullshit. Cause u guys absorb the most information for the first 15 mins, then u hv to take a break" =DDDDD we so totally agree! We heart u Mr Francis =)

Hmm, lets see. School's been a little boring esp during break & lunch cause he's gone for competition. Ah well. Oh Nikki and i are beginning to like maths class now. I guess thats it for now. Weather's too hot to think xP

2010-04-09T14:25:00.001+08:00

Holidays are almost over and i hv finally given up on ict & chem. Sigh, i miss people. Ever since monday, i havent seen anyone from my school anywhere. Hopefully i'll hv better luck this weekend.

OH speaking of Jul, i hv just discovered a new phobia of mine. Taxis. Yes, its true, both Jul & i hv developed a fear of cabs. Cab drivers to be very exact. Certain cab drivers to be very very very exact D=

Anyway, yeah putting that aside. I've managed to talk to Regine more this past week since i hv nothing but time on my hands. My plans on finding a job for summer hols hv been, sabotaged. Why? I'm going to spend it with my aunt in KL .______. why? Cause i need to improve on my maths. Imagine, 7 weeks of summer fun and i'll get to spend it in KL for God knows how long. On the upside, someone's gonna get his drivers license soon so yeah. When he does, be sure to look up at my blog picture ;)

I'm guessing i hv provided sufficient crap for today ;D

oh btw i hv chopped off my hair xP

I'm sorry koala, dont hate me, please.

Smile

2010-04-08T14:20:00.000+08:00

Smile.

Eventhough you hurt inside.

Smile.

'Cause it'll make them think you're alright

Smile.

Eventhough your world is grey.

Smile.

'Cause you know there'll be colour some day.

Smile.

Even when you're crippled inside.

Smile.

And make sure you make it wide

Smile.

Eventhough you don't know when, just

Smile.

Just because you can

written by me

2010-04-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

Just had a chat with a friend. She wants to get a sperm doner and i told her it was sad, she said it wasnt. Then she consulted her friend, he obviously said its not sad. Then i got this snippet of they're convo, which she sent, i'm no stalker.

he says:
i had a deep thought
shee says:
okkk
he says:
getting married is such a pain in the arse...
she says:
okkk
he says:
so..i came 2 a conclusion of adopting..

They both don't wanna get spouses D= which is why i gave up on arguing. When ur mind's been set for smth, u'd obviously find the good points of it.
For me, i DO wanna find a guy and actually get married. Though the chances of that happening are very very slim *rolls eyes* thats just how i was brought up.

Sigh...

Holidays.

2010-04-06T18:26:00.000+08:00

What i hv accomplished till date since holidays started.

-sleeping; lots and LOTS of it

-eating

-drinking...water ;D

-half of my ict hw; dreamweaver keeps on lagging my comp.Shit.

-CHATTING;oh yes musn't forget that.

-chemistry;nuff said x)

okay shall post pictures now =) yes regine this is yet another boring post. But oh well =)

HEH i made that xPP

the world won't;but I would.

"Girl: when we are apart, whatever are you thinking of?

Guy: if this is what i call home, then why do i feel so alone?"

Good Friday

2010-04-03T17:25:00.000+08:00

Yday, during the Good Friday mass, i sat, or rather stood, with Julianne, Dicky, Marion and Michele. And as usual, with Dicky around, the conversations were not short of being either random of funny. So yeah, there were 2 conversations that i rmbr.

FIRST ONE.
*talking*
Me: whats that? *points to Michelle's hair*
[cause really,standing in church at night with minimal light,its so easy to spot small things on ppl's hair]
Michelle: Its a cl--
*gets interrupted by Dicky*
D: ITS A DEAD KUPU-KUPU! *with indian accent*
*laughs*

SECOND ONE.
D: its good friday, we should all mourn in silence
*makes weird, hight pitched constipated sounds*
*looks at dicky*
D: What? Never heard an indian mourn before ah?
*pause & bursts out into silent giggles*

obviously the laughing was all done by Julianne and urs truly. Ha, both Jul & Dicky arent going tonight D=

RC is closing =O
For 10 days =OO
Because of trash overdose! =OOO
._________.
haih.
i need a life.

Better. Finally.

2010-04-02T11:25:00.001+08:00

Yay, finally i'm better and ready for tmr night. Kinda. Still coughing here and there but yeah, definitely better. Ah i've been doing my ict hw lately and yeah, i can actually rmbr most of the things, which is really shocking. Now, i just hv to get started on chem, which is the damnidntwannadothisstupidbitchymahfan part. I dont think its hard, i just dnt wanna do it. Anyway, crover's coming back from his leadership camp thing [smth I was supposed to go for but stayed home instead xP]

WELCOME HOME YEUNG KAY-SHERN ;DD

Um, other that that...
I dnt think i hv anything else to blog about.
Shall blog again later if the net is ok =)
LSS of the day: Skyway Avenue

Going green

2010-04-01T19:08:00.001+08:00

Welcome, no u didnt click the wrong blog, this is my new blog colour, u like? =)
Inspired by the blogskin i wanted to put but, going through the html stuff's just, a major no since i already hv ict hw on that, so yeah. I did change the layout to the left though thats pretty much it.

"Cause if you jump, I will jump too,
We will fall together from the building's ledge,
Never looking back at what we've done,
We'll say it was love,
Cause I would die for you on Skyway Avenue"

Lss of the day: Skyway Avenue - We The Kings

I miss you koala =(

Sickkkk D: fark.

2010-03-29T19:18:00.000+08:00

GAH, what a time to get sick. During sports carnival and the last week of school T___T mhh. Anyway, shall blog bout my little, episode of me trying to sleep last night =D

At 11pm i went to bed, in hopes of sleeping. Slept for about 15 mins before waking up to a blocked nose, felt very very cold, even with blanket and low fan number. Did smth[i dnt rmbr what] and nose finally cleared. Fell asleep again, woke up at 3am, sweating a lot, but nose was blocked again .___. stayed up till 4 and finally slept again till 6.30.

.________.
again, being sick, SUCKS.

2010-03-28T02:09:00.000+08:00

Just smth before i go sleep.

Yeung Kay-Shern, you're not a boring person

That is all =)
Nitey Nite world.

2010-03-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

Ever had one of those days, when things start out alright, get crappy and just when u thought things are okay again another stupid shit situation happens again? That's pretty much today.

It started off alright, went for movie with my classmates, had an awesome time 'shopping' with nikki and faiz xD and the movie was great. How to train your dragon's nice x) the black dragon's fuckin cute =DDD then yeah, came the wrong time moment >< then church and dinner was fine. Then yeah, things went stupid again. Parents suddenly decided to ignore me and then talk to me again when we got home .___. uncle and aunt came over and that was fine. Cousins came over next, and they're. Well i dnt talk to them at all, and since they dnt really acknowledge my existence[cause they're working age and they're "grown-ups"] i've given up trying to show my existence.
And cause of the incident this afternoon, i wasn't really in the mood for anything really. So with them over now, talking to my parents, and me being in front of the comp blogging this blog. They prolly think i'm some lifeless child. Prolly in reality i am. But the main thing is, i couldn't care less bout what they think. Cause, really, whats the point? To them, i'm still the naive/annoying little 6 year old. It not just them in particular. Its most of my cousins. I only hv 2 cousins, who actually talk to me. 2 out of friggin 20 cousins. Yes to some thats not a very big number, but trust me, when the 2 cousins arent around, u feel oh-so-goddamn lonely sitting by urself, when everyone's laughing and having fun. That's why i never liked family dinners.
I've heard, that people say i'm very clingy. Yes, i prolly am and i'm truly sorry if it bothers u, but really. I cant help it.

I spy with my little, sepet eyes smth startting with a C!

2010-03-26T23:48:00.000+08:00

Yesh a "C". Hehehehe =D

p/s: randomness taking over and blogging here. Please excuse my oh so lack of grammar usage. Please and thank you =D

Gopeng trip :)

2010-03-23T20:03:00.000+08:00

Uhm.. I'm not gonna do a detailed blog post bout today's field trip, but i'm just gonna post the "funny moments" of today.

What happened when we reached Gopeng town...
Vin: Where are we?
Me: -___- Zimbabwe
Andrew: *gasps!* there are chinese ppl in Zimbabwe! Take a picture take a picture!!
*pause*
Me: And on ur right, you will see an indian man on a bicycle.
Andrew: *turns right & gasps* Take a picture, take a picture!
Me: And on ur left, you will see a building.
Andrew: *continues looking right and says a confused* omg...
-pause-
Me: That's your right darling, i said LEFT
Andrew: OH OH!! *immediately turn to the left* O-M-G!

Another one was, after my group was the first one to complete one team building activity.
We were given a small block of styrofoam[is that how u spell it?] with a nail sticking out of it, together with that, we were given 12 nails. The objective was to make the 12 nails balance on that 1 nail. Only that 1 nail is allowed to be poked into the styrofoam, and the other nails cannot touch the styrofoam while balancing.
So yeah, after we finished and showed our finished product, Jin yelled at the top of his voice:
I TOLD YOU! I TOLD YOU ALL THAT'S HOW YOU DO IT! I TOLD YOU I TOLD YOU I TOLD YOU! *and goes on shouting that he told them*
[then he goes on a softer and yet more pathetic tone]
*sniffs* and you guys called me stupid...

HAHAHA x)

Anyway yeah, thats it from me today, all tired out.
Off i go.

2010-03-22T19:49:00.000+08:00

I believe in the sun, even when it isnt shining.
I believe in love, even when there's no one there.
And i believe in God, I believe in God
Even when, he is silent =)
-i miss singing that song in church xP-

I just realised that i havent been writing any poems lately. Prolly cause im occupied with THE COMPLETE ILLUSTRATED WORKS OF Lewis Carrol. He's the author of Alice In Wonderland btw. Thank you again Andrew for lending me the book =) its gonna be a somewhat busy week this week, cause its exams again. Lets see..

OH! I'm going to Gopeng tmr! *woots!* with my class! *double woots!* AND ANDREW CAN COME! *quadruple woots!* =DDD on a not so bright note, my oh so fabulous[excuse me while i die for saying that], fake accented class teacher's coming with. Fuckk. Ah well. As long as i dnt hv to sit with her.
I hv mock exam on wednesday at 4 .____. hv to rush again ><
And, its the actual exam the next day D= [i pray that a certain group member of mine doesnt lock us in studio B]
Friday, its everything back to normal. Ah, then i'd be a free person =D aside from the sports week the following week.
I really, really cant wait for the holidays. I wanna be able to sleep in again ><
*cough* and some other reasons too. Heh ;D

Our bet, don't forget our bet x)

Saturday.

2010-03-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

Today instead of having class at 9 had it at 8.30 instead, but yeah because of the dilly dallying we only started at 9 -_____- after that went to eat and went to JJ again xP
someone commented: 'u really got so much time ar?'
anyway, back home after that. I fell asleep for what half an hour? And was woken up by a call from Ching xD ahh Chingy. Mass was after that, met Dicky, Adrian, Leroy, Neil, Nigel and one mroe guy i forgot his name. I just call him fat piggy xPP and yes they were all guys, i noticed that. Brenda joined us a while after and Jul too =) then mass. I still feel awkward when wardening .___.
Anyway, went to Kizuna for dinner again =DDD

My apologies for the brief blog post, im just waiting for Jul to come over cause she's sleepin over =) oh maybe i'll blog bout one of our convos today.

Jul:Pau, i MIGHT hv to cancel tonight. Some family thing came up .___.
Pau:Omg..okay then
Jul:I'm really sorry D:
Pau:Its fine la =)
-15 mins later*
Jul:PAU! I'M COMINGGGG OVERRRRRRRRRRR!!! =D =D =D =D =D =D =D
Pau: O_____O... YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! =D =D =D =D =D

hahaha. Random no? =)

LSS-ing to: I Miss You - Blink 182
Phrase of the day:
A double-storeyed house with 3 dogs and ac in rooms which are necessary =)

Scrub a dub dub x]

2010-03-19T17:48:00.000+08:00

Its friday, again, and yeah i went out again =D same place, somewhat same time but with different person. Went out with Jul today =) BEFORE i start illustrating on my outing, i shall just comment that. I hate my english results and yes i've told my mom about it. No she didnt give me hell for it, cause she could tell i was pissed enough when i got into the car.
NOW, moving on...

Arrived in JJ at bout 2 ish, went to coffee bean to get one caramel thingy and this drink called sunrise. They were both good =) then we went "scrubbing" =D hehehe. Shant tell u where though. Lol. Anyway as we were on the way up on the escalator, there was this big gap between us, Jul and i, and this group of malay lalas in front of us. Jul took one BIG step and she was right behind them, naturally i took one BIG step too to join her. Then i overheard one of the girls saying:

"Eh, kenape mereka dekat sangat?"
[hey, why are they so close?]
I wanted to reply her:
"kerana muka awak begitu BUTT FUGLY =D"

LOL ><" it means "cause ur face is so BUTT FUGLY" btw =) then um, i bought Jul a single scoop BR cone =D THEN WE WENT TO TAKE PICTURES! Yes, in the lala machines. While we were editing them, i noticed that my hair looked cropped in the picture .__. it was like: Me: OMG WHERE DID MY HAIR GO??? fuckk DD= Jul: *bursts out laughing & takes pic of me editing that picture* i'm gonna label this as "where did my hair go? fuckk" =D Me: -.-" Then, yeah it was the BADUMPBADUMP of the chest moment. IN THE END WE WERE VICTORIOUS! =DDDD lol ANYWAY, guess thats all bout that. I'm pretty sure Jul'd rmbr more so yeah, feel free to check her blog for updates =)

~*~*~*~

I'm going on a trip next tuesday to Gopeng Resort ;DD cant wait. Then i hv my ballet exam on thursday in the very same week .___. fuck,i am going to fail,fuck.

I seriously cant wait for the holidays, be in only 10 days, i just really REALLY want to spend a day with Crover =\ sigh.
*patience patience*

Uhm, im guessing thats all for now. Shall blog more tmr. I got a feeling that i'll hv LOTS more to blog bout after this weekend. Hehehe.

PS: I'm pretty sure u could guess what they're bout. And yes, i still rmbr the lyrics to the whole song =)

2010-03-18T17:20:00.000+08:00

i really really hate it
when what if's start to come into my mind.

:D :D :D

2010-03-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

This is what happened when i went out with my class =) sry couldnt post it earlier.

Um a series of things happened today. Shall start with what happened in school. It was pretty normal in school, except for the part Nikki and i collided into each other .___. yeah. Its a complicated process but yeah thats what happened. She landed on the sand so she scraped her elbow pretty bad. I fell on the grills to cover the drains so i just got bruised and scraped on my knees. After colliding, instead of crying out in pain, we burst out laughing xD not cause we enjoy pain or anything -___- but cause of our stupidity xD

After school it was off to jj to watch Alice In Wonderland =DD the highlight of the day. We met up with Thylana as well =) after buying our take away from McD, we went to the food court cause Andrew bought doughnuts there. So yeah. Out of the several tables that were in that place, our table was the loudest xD there was this cashier that kept on looking at me and Andrew. It was creepy .___. he and i even noticed she started grinning at us when Andrew fed me ice cream ._____. i think she thought we were together. *swt* ANYWAY we were noisy and yeah we were having a great time. Before going in, some of us went to buy popcorn. There was this Alice in Wonderland combo, where the popcorn container was like the mad hatter's hat x) a lot of ppl bought it, and it was RM 10.90 .___. So anyway yeah, we were going up the stairs, and guess who was working on the day to check my tickets. Yeah, Melvin Navin was doing it xP he attempted to trip me, epic fail [HAH! xD] while i was grinning at him i got weird looks from my classmates.. Jasmin finds it weird that i noe so many ppl in ipoh. Its not my fault they tend to show up xP anyway the movie was great =)definitely a must watch. Halfway thru the movie, Thylana asks
"That's how caterpillars die?? =OOOOO" & i said
"No Thylana, its turning into a butterfly =_____="
"OHHHHH!!!!!!"
Yes that was a sweat moment.
nothing much after that. A great day out it was ;DD

2010-03-17T19:17:00.000+08:00

Okay, i'm finally blogging again. So, yeah nothing much today. Oh yeah, i gave Andrew his presents today. One from the 3 of us, Jasmin, Nikki and i, and another gift. Personally from me =) he looked happy. So Andrew if ur reading this u better come to school tmr x)

Speaking of school, i was just reading this blog belonging to a school friend of mine, and i'm telling u here and now, he sounds so. Changed. Its like, the person whom i thought he was suddenly vanished. This big, asswipe, sad excuse of a human being, suddenly became this meek, humble and seemingly fun to be with person.
Yes, for the first time in a very long time. I felt pity for him, when i read his most recent post. And yet, if someone were to ask me,
"Would u fall for him again?"
I'd say,
"Nope, not a chance of that happening ;)"

breathes

2010-03-10T18:04:00.000+08:00

Oh fuck this week. Hate it when its the week after exams, cause its when results come out. So far, the results i got were, somewhat what i expected. Some even worse than i expected. But i shall only blog my final results when i get everything back. Ish ish.

This is BULLSHIT. Exams/assestments/test yeah they're all BULLSHIT. Ah Jul & i, we were having this convo yday. I think some might find it amusing.
Jul - green me - blue

Sigh why cant exams be like go swear at a teacher. Extra points given for bravery and style.
Go stab ur enemies. 5 hours limit.
In the given time, u must stab at least 80% of ur total to pass. Extra for stabbing teachers.
Or we could hv things like go clubbing and write a min of 20 words bout ur exp. sheesh obviously its time to change the minister of ed.
Omg yeah, must work with a partner x)
Yeah the more the better. or or pick some random blue blubblub and write 5 reasons why u dnt like it. Extra points for real life experioences.
Can we change it to. Pick any random blubblub u'd like to KILL? If so please state. Practicals later.
ZOMG yes yes yes.also,an alternative subject-a retarded gayass ss teacher. extra points for both
OMG yeah! we'd be A* students all year round! ;D

[then i was talking bout the pda rule in school then this came up]

Oh and ALL SCHOOLS COED. First rule of the book:lessons start at 10 and finish at 10.15. Attendance taking-15 mins. The rest of the time is to be spent roaming the school thinking of things useless to the society. Gossiping,talking and playing mindless games will be rewarded handsomely. Classes are also chosen by students. Students are expected to be noisy. Students who do not adhere to the above rules will be punished severely.
No school uniforms. Any nerd-like outfits will be shamed and boo-ed in public
Yes.school shoes will not be tolerated.
Paint ur nails, or just keep them long
Manicure/pedicure privileges will be provided. Hair must also be kept in a stylish and up to date fashion. Lala hairstyles will not be tolerated.

This isnt really our FULL convo. But yeah, its part of it. Bottom line's we both think exams are bullshit. ;)

Those who're judging us just cause of this convo we had, better not get in my way of u will die. Thank you.

2010-03-05T15:32:00.000+08:00

BLOGGIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I hv seriously missed typing on my black and noisy keyboard DDD= in case u didnt noe, i was having exams hence my absence in blogging. I havent officially ended mt exams yet but I DONT CARE =)

So far i've roughly made an assumption on what i passed and what i'd fail[again]
*ahehem*Since i am i "business student" and is doing accounts. I shall apply the law of prudence first. Which means i'm gonna say what i think i'm gonna fail first xP And if ur wondering why i didnt just say that in the first place, fuck off. Its my blog =)

Subjects I am bound to f-a-i-l.
CHEM
Bio &
Bst [sorry mr francis ><]
Maths
and im guessing thats everything..

Now the subjects i THINK i will pass
ICT
Accounts
Econs! ;D

Guarantee pass
English
Malay.

.______________________.

its sad i noe. but haih what to do? xD those who had "study harder" in ur heads, again. Fuck off -.-

fffffffffffffffffffffff--ark

2010-02-27T16:26:00.000+08:00

I wanted to post another quote post today, but like. I copied the things and i forgot to save it somewhere and i copied another thing. And now they're all gone. Sigh.

Back to the drawing board
.____.

2010-02-26T21:22:00.000+08:00

Before u go on, yes i noe i've blogged bout this before, but this is the extended version. Its got verses that actually make sense! How awesome is that? =DD

Gitchee Gitchee Goo
Bow chika bow wow, That's what my baby says!
Mow mow mow and my heart starts pumpin'
Chika chika chu wop
Never Gonna Stop Gitchi Gitchi Goo means That I Love You

My baby's got her own way of talking
Whenever she says something sweet
And she knows it's my world she's a rockin'
Though my vocabulary's incomplete
And Though it may sound confusing
Sometimes I wish she'd give it to me straight
But I never feel like I'm Losing (losing)
When I take the time to translate
That's what I'm talking 'bout

Bow chika bow wow, That's what my baby says!
Mow mow mow and my heart starts pumpin'
Chika chika chu wop
Never Gonna Stop Gitchi Gitchi Goo means That I Love You

Well I don't know what to do (I don't know what to do)
But I think I'm getting through (I think I'm getting through)
'Cause when I say I Love You (I Say I Love You)
She says I Gitchi Gitchi Goo You Too!
Don't need a Dictionary

(I said A) Bow chika bow wow, That's what my baby says!
Mow mow mow and my heart starts pumpin'
Chika chika chu wop
Never Gonna Stop Gitchi Gitchi Goo means That I Love You (Baby, Baby...)

2010-02-24T19:03:00.000+08:00

Okay. Since i'm feeling a little more sane now, shall post a more normal blog post xP

As you hv noticed exams are comin up next week and no i am not ready ><>.< window =")Oh">< its sucks and u get a headache if u try to read smth w/o closing one eye for too long D= [i ended up removing the other one as well xP became just as lost cause everything was effing blur xP]

Anyway. Yeah thats all for now =)

I mish you. Vewy vewy much =(

2010-02-24T18:16:00.000+08:00

Just a quick post.
Exams next week *panic panic*
But its bio first then english =D
*pauses thinks* OH CRAP o.o
*panic panic panic*
okay shall go now =D
*panic panic*

Quote Post #2

2010-02-21T21:17:00.000+08:00

Why is it raining? Cause the sky is crying. Why is the sky crying? Cause it feels how much i miss you, so the clouds got so touched they started crying for me.
[compliments to me ;D]

Love is blind cause most people only see what's on the outside and not what she is for inside out
[compliments to Mav ;D]
i’m here. not because i’m supposed to be here or because i’m ~~trapped~~
here,but because i’d rather be with you than anywhere else in the world.

i've noticed that if you look carefully at someones eyes,
during the first five seconds that they start to look at you,
the truth of their feelings will shine through for an instant
before it starts to flicker away.

it made you feel a way you’ve ~~never~~ felt before, and I’m
all you need and that you never want more. Then you’d
say all of the right things without a clue but you’d save
the best for last, like I’m the one for you.

cause if one day you wake up, and find that you're missing
me, and your heart starts to ~~wonder~~ where on this earth i
could be, thinking maybe you'll come back to the place that
we'd meet. Then you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

If your whole world was to fall down around you,
i would be ~~here~~ to help you pick everything back up, no matter what.

When I'm weak, I draw strength from you and when you're
lost, I know how to ~~change~~ your mood. and when I'm down,
you breathe life over me and even though we are miles
apart, we are each other's destiny.

You know, you ~~never~~ really give up on love. You just
get tired and force yourself not to want it. But still,
deep inside of you, there will be that one person,
who will always take your breath away.

you're the face I see here in the crowd, and
the beating of my heart moves faster now.
you're ~~always~~ on my mind, every minute of
the day and I'm hanging onto every word you say.

i want to know what you are thinking when you
look at me and smile. i keep thinking of how much
i love talking to you, how good you look when you
smile, how much i love your laugh. i ~~daydream~~
about you off and on, replaying pieces of our
conversation, laughing at funny things that you said
or did. i've memorized your face and the way that you
look at me. i catch myself smiling again at what i imagine.

I believe in love, in arguing, in jamming out by yourself in the

car. I believe in smiling til your cheeks hurt and laughing until

you ~~cry~~. I believe in having someone tell you you're beautiful,

dancing in the rain, and ~~miracles.~~ I believe in second chances,

even if you've completely screwed up.

End of Quote Post #2

♥

School.

2010-02-21T16:37:00.000+08:00

Again, another school holiday gone in just a blink of an eye. My initial plan when i got off school on Friday was:
Eat
Study
Sleep
Collect Ang Paus
Repeat.
for the whole entire week. So far, i've done everything except the most important one: Study ._____.
i.am.so.dead.

Well whatever, i had a great week so yeah
*grins*
i'm just sad it has to end so soon, not cause i didnt get to study ;P
And yes i do notice that im not blogging like how i always do.
Oh well screw it x)

I'd prolly build a net under the atmosphere
to catch any falling stars
so that they could let me wish u were here with me.

Inspiration on a sunny day

its been a long time.

jealousy.

in order to keep u going

pictures :)

Losing appeal.

Terrified

so cool.

Mehh

Listen

Blogging again :)

Calmed.

Tired.

Ever After

Random songs :D

Heh heh

DWARF RABBITS

Oh no.

Yeah..

arghhhh

Temporary Home

Dreams .____.

*clenches teeth & nods very patiently*

Decisions decisions

Hi-ho hi-ho its of to blogging i go :D

Serious stuff. Mostly.

*grins*

Pictures by me :)

Pictures :)

Hillsong

ohmygawditstuesday ;D

MONDAY

Finally

BACK

This'll be a doozy

More random links & sayings.

First day

Holidays

Dear Daddy...

Sigh. O-kay, from the top.

Confirmation! :O

Is there anything u doubt abt ur Catholic faith?

Continuation of previous blog :D

me likes

Abortion

Beastly.

I hv decided...

Back from the dead? Maybe.

LGMH.

Hm.

♥

It should.

Smile

Holidays.

Good Friday

Better. Finally.

Going green

Sickkkk D: fark.

I spy with my little, sepet eyes smth startting with a C!

Gopeng trip :)

Saturday.

Scrub a dub dub x]

:D :D :D

*breathes*

fffffffffffffffffffffff--ark

Quote Post #2

School.

clenches teeth & nods very patiently

grins

breathes